Someday I'll be a star

XV

Zidane's Point of View

"Mom? Oh bat gising pa kayo?"  Tanong ko sa mom ko pag pasok ko ng front door.

"Oh kamusta ang gig?" She asked.

"Ayun life changing. Pero grabe gusto kami ng crowd lakas ng euphoria na naramdaman ko." I said with excitement.

"Ganon ba anak?  Sana naman maiyos mo rin pag aaral mo ah."

Of course ako pa? Hindi man ako gifted sa academics pero hindi naman ako bumabagsak. Pero struggle rin kasi nga practices tapos gigs.  Hindi naman pwede one sided tayo. Kung iiwan ko yung academics ano na mangyayari sa akin after music? Iba pa rin pag may diploma ka para naman may back up career ka if everything else fails.

"Oo naman hindi naman ako absentero eh. "

"Kumain ka na ba?'

"Opo mommy kumain kami after ng show namin."

Pumunta muna ako sa balcony para mag reflect. Wala lang feeling ko I need time for myself para makapag isip-isip ng mga bagay-bagay.  I just can't believe na we pull that show with a five star performance. Hindi ko rin akalain na kahit minsan makalat kami sa practice pero nagawa namin.

"Sana man lang those people who rejected me nakita yung show kanina.  Lalo na yung iba diyan na ghosting ang ginawa sa akin last year. " Naalala ko nanaman yung Fil-Aussie girl na gumawa sa akin nun.  She could have been a fine catch but ugh!! That rejection sucks!

"Makikita mo you rejected the wrong guy.... " I whispered due to frustration.

"Ugh! Each time naalala ko yun! I don't deserve it!" 

Bakit ba di ko makalimutan yun? Siguro I'm not just used of getting rejected by girls. Yes she's a perfect hot babe in terms of looks and attitude pero it still sucks to get rejected through ghosting. 

"Anak bat gising ka pa? Galit ka ba? Mukhang malalim iniisip mo ah." My mom approached me.

"Wala to mommy. May naalala lang."

"Sino? "

"Wala naman nothing serious."

"Nako anak alam ko na iyan. Yun ba yung nag reject sayo last year? Yung nag inom pa kayo ni Chelsea after nun diba?" 

"Bakit mo alam?"

"Ano ka ba akala mo di ko alam mga pinagagawa niyo ng kababata mo?"

Ewan ko ba kung paano nalaman ni mommy yun? Pero I don't remember telling it to her. Baka naman na overheard niya kami ni Chelsea talking about it.  Anyways nandito na rin kami talking about it. 

"It's just..... Unacceptable! Nangyari lang out of the f*cking nowhere." Dapat diyan sa mga babaeng mahilig mag ghosting kinukulam eh.

" I know it's excruciating anak pero let go! "

"Its hard mom pero... Ugh! One day she'll see I'll have an empire to prove to her that she made a mistake. One day makikita niya who Zidane Romeo really is. Pati na rin yung mga tao na who thinks I'm trash." Let's be honest I hate rejection. Pero parte ng buhay yun eh kaya wala akong magagawa. I have no other choice but to prove myself to those poeple who thinks I'm nothing. Naalala ko pa before nung varsity pa ako ng basketball nung high school. I never get enough playing time kahit na alam ko sa sarili ko na may magagawa ako to twist the outcome of the game. Even sa music kahit na post ko sa social media we're doing well some people who are really close to me would just ignore it. As if I'm nothing like thin air.  

"I sense so much fear and anger with in you anak. Alam mo just do what you love  and be yourself. Tapos ayun the right people that would accept you will arrive.  Zidane anak don't let anger motivate you." My mom said.

"Parang ka na si Chelsea mom eh. Ganyan na ganyan siya magsalita sa akin eh."

"Ano ka ba anak kasi nga mahal ka ng best friend mo. Pinapahirapan mo lang sarili mo sa ibang babae. There's conflict with in you." 

"Anak please lang..  Listen to your feelings."

AN: So sorry for the less than 1000 word chapter. Bihira ko lang gawin ito pramis. So allow me to have a quick advice session para sa mga nakakarelate kay Zidane. If ever you're reading this and na e-experience mo yung may gusto kang career at ayaw ka support ng parents mo. Well hindi ka nagiisa. Ako rin naman may dream job ako pero ayaw rin ako support ng parents ko. So that's the reason why I wrote Zidane's character.

Ok so let me give you some tips if your parents doesn't support your desired career path. 

1. It's OK!  and its normal. If may gusto ka ma achieve in life pero up against sayo ang parents mo. It's OK! Don't get discouraged. If you have a calling there will be burdens on the way. And given talaga iyon na it won't be a straight line. Tuloy lang and one day they will accept it. Syempre anak ka nila, impossible na hindi nila iyan matatangap.

2.  Understand that they lived in a different era. Perhaps during the time of our parents iba ang trends at iba ang lifestyle. So for is millenials iba na rin ang trend at iba na rin ang mindset ng mga tao. So it is understandable. Just understand that they have their own opinion.

3. Don't drop the call. Iyang calling mo. Yung thing na you've always wanted to do. Please  keep holding on to it. Maybe you're in a season of drought kasi walang nangyayare sa gusto mo. Stay faithful to it and for sure time will come you will be able to achieve it.  Maybe its a God given talent na you have so you can bless everyone.

4.Keep in mind that God is not punishing you. Whatever you're going through right now. Understand na its not a punishment. Sometimes you will have to go trough the things na you can't handle . And its actually an opportunity to depend on God's presence and experience his power. 

OK so I hope I was able to enlighten you in this chapter. Feel free to comment if you have questions.

-Mystic AJ