The blood ran down my wrist as tears rolled down my face. It hurt, but yet, I was still sitting here, alone, cutting again. I had no one to turn to and things were getting worse.
It was getting close to summer time and I was the only one in my circle of friends wearing long sleeves. I’d passed out so many times in choir from wearing long sleeves or a sweat shirt. I always wanted to wear short sleeves or tank tops, but I never could, because I knew people would ask or report me to the counselors. I needed help; I knew that much, but there wasn’t anyone I trusted enough to tell.
I slit the blade through my wrist many more times before wiping it off with a towel. I dried up the blood and hid the towel in my room like I always did after I finished. My mom would send me to a hospital if she found out, so I made sure there was no evidence left of the harm I had conflicted upon myself.
“Are you ready to go?” my mom called from the living room.
“Just a second!” I yelled back. This was one thing I was looking forward to. I was finally getting to see my favorite band: Pentatonix. Not only was I getting to see them perform live and in concert, but I was going to meet my idols.
“Well, hurry up!” she called.
I wanted away from my home so badly, but I never ran, because I knew that if someone found me, they would take me back. Now that I was 18, I could legally leave and never come back. I took a rather large purse with me and filled it with things I thought I’d need once I ran away. The concert was a 2 hour drive away from my city, so I knew I would have time to run. My mom had booked a hotel room for me, so she wouldn’t have to pick me up after the concert. Little did she know, I canceled the reservations and reserved a room at a hotel 30 minutes outside of town.
I checked to make sure I had everything I wanted. I had my wallet full of the money I had taken out of my savings account. I didn’t want my debit card to be tracked, so I took all of my money out of my account for the trip. I had an extra shirt I had bout, but was too afraid to wear, because the sleeves were short. I had a pair of shorts, but they didn’t cover the scars and burn marks on my legs. If anything, they made them more noticeable. And last, but not least, I had everything I currently used to harm myself; which included: a lighter, a razor, a blade, and a tack. I used them all differently and I didn’t plan to stop using them because I ran away.
Self-harm had become my escape.
I walked to the door of my room and took one last look around. I had cleaned everything, so everything was in place and in perfect condition. I turned around and walked out the door.
“I’m ready,” I said. I slung my hipster style bag over my head and steadied it across my shoulder.
“Is that what you’re going to wear?” she asked, putting an emphasis on the word ‘that.’
I looked down at what I was wearing. I had on shorts that covered enough of my legs to hide the scars and my Pentatonix hoodie.
“Well, yeah,” I replied. “Why?”
“I just thought since you are going to meet them, you’d at least try and look like a girl for once,” she said and laughed it off like it was nothing. But to me, it meant everything.
“Can we just go?” I asked, growing impatient and my longing to cut growing stronger.
“If you want,” she said.
We got in the car and I sat in the back seat.
“Are you sure you don’t want to sit up front?” she asked.
“Yeah,” I began, “I’m fine back here.”
I put my headphones on over my ears and listened to the music on my iPod Nano for the entire two hours. When we arrived, I got out of the car and began to close the door.
“*Eh Hem*” my mom said, pretending like she was clearing her throat. “Don’t you have something to say to me?” she asked.
“Yeah,” I said, attempting to muster up enough courage to yell back, but it just wouldn’t happen. “Bye, love you,” I lied slamming the car door as hard as I could. My mom looked at me in disgust through the window. I shrugged my shoulders and mouthed the word ‘sorry.’ She rolled her eyes and drove away. I laughed to myself at my success in making my mom mad before I left for good.
I turned around and faced the opera house that Pentatonix was to perform at.
“I finally made it,” I said under my breath.L
I walked inside and took a seat in the VIP Pit, eagerly waiting for the show to begin.
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The Wounds He Mended
FanfictionRian is a typical teenage girl. She is beautiful, bright, and suicidal. There are scars all over her wrists and legs; all of which she tries to cover up. But when she accidentally reveals them to a member of Pentatonix, it might just be the best...