I woke up the next morning, not remembering when or how I fell asleep.
Still scared to go out I stayed in my room,
Got ready for school in my room, not bothering to check in the mirror,
not bothering to brush my teeth, not bothering to eat breakfast.
When it was time for the bus to come, My heart was beating outside of my chest,
The thought of going out of my room in order to get to the door,
too horrified to even walk to my door,
I started shaking like i was last night, but this time it was worse.
My legs were wanting to give in, I had to plan it out all in my head.
I finally had no other choice but to go if not I would've missed my bus.
I walked out of my room and What I saw left me petrified,
Everything was out of place, Everything was nearly broken.
I pass by your room in which the door was open, I take a peek in and see you sound asleep.
I somewhat feel relieved but at the same time I turn angry.
In this -6° weather, I was suddenly sweating in heat, feeling my face turn really hot.
You don't deserve to be in a big comfortable bed sleeping,
dreaming, feeling relaxed and calm.
Of course all snuggled up to your son, my brother,
my competition.
You always preferred him because he came from your sperm,
because he has the same name as you,
because he's a boy...
