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What it's like losing someone to suicide

Now, this is a sad part this story, but it is random. A lot of people know have had someone pass way in there life but very few lose some to suicide.  Suicide is ending your own life, and I'm not gonna lie yes I do think about it. I know what it's like to lose people to suicide and what it's like being suicidal. When losing someone to suicide, you blame it on your self. I've lost 4 people to suicide and 3 of 4 were my best friends. The one that wasn't was almost there.  I think about them every day and still, blame myself. It's like someone tore a hole in your body and took everything.  and knowing that yo uwill never be able to say "goodbye" or "I love you" one last time makes it worse.