Bts // One Shots

Ex boyfriend - Jhope

"I don't think I should go," I tell my best friend.

"But Taehyung asked me to specifically invite you," Jungkook says trying to convince me to go to his friend's birthday party but Jungkook's friend (Taehyung) is friends with Jhope meaning he will surely be there too. It's a coincidental connection as I had met Jungkook by accident, not through friends. Jhope and I haven't talked since the break up and I don't think seeing each other for the first time at a party would be good idea. What if I saw him with a date? I don't think I could handle it. 

"Well tell Taehyung that I'm busy," I say making him frown at me then a wash of understanding goes over his face. 

"You think Jhope will be there." He suspects correctly. I nod looking at my feet, "Well then just be sure to stay in the middle of the party. You said he wanders the edges of the rooms." Yes but that's kind of my thing as well. I shake my head. 

"You're not going to give up on this one are you?" I say with a sigh. He grins and shakes his head.

"You need to get out of the house." He adds. Groaning I head upstairs to get ready.

"I hate you for this!" I call back to him.

"You won't regret this!" He yells up after me.

I shower and style my hair making it looks so damn good that I question if it's even my hair. Doing my makeup to the best standard I know selfies will be coming up soon and clothes making my body look like I hadn't just eaten a bag of marshmallows to myself. Maybe going to a party will be good for me. I always dress up real nice for it that I'm like 'low self-esteem what?', 'anxiety who?' 

I admire my self in the mirror as I know tomorrow I will be right back to a lazy mess. I'm not particularly self-conscious, I know I have a nice body but I never do anything to show it off. Baggy jumpers with sweat pants have not been doing me any favours since my break up. If I'm actually going to see Jhope tonight then he's going to god damn well see me at my finest.

Our breakup was messy. Crying, yelling and then just sitting in silence. A very bipolar break up indeed. Jhope wasn't the type to get upset like that, he was always bubbly and happy. We had been under a lot of stress with our own problems that we weren't able to see each other as much as we should have so when we finally did get to be alone together we just took it out on each other. It got too much for Jhope and I so we decided that maybe we should just stop everything altogether. I blocked out everyone but Jungkook. He and I had bonded as we both found each other crying at a bus stop after we had both been through a rough break up. I'd never met him before so it was quite the first impression but it bonded us. He and I are strictly friends, however, we have slipped up a few times. Being emotional lots of hormones had been flying around and things happened but together we decided we should just be there for one another emotionally and nothing else.

"You ready to go?" Jungkook walks into my room and sees me putting in my earrings, "Damn." he breathes. I look up and giggle.

"Do I look great or do I look great?" I ask rhetorically with a smug smile.

"You look hot. I know you said you didn't want to see Jhope but maybe you should just let him get a little glance. Show him what he once had." I nod.

"You read my mind." I have no idea if Jhope is over me. It's been over a month. He had to be over me now right? If so, why aren't I?
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We sit in the taxi heading to the party. I can hear the music as we head down the street almost at the Taehyung's house. My confidence has only lasted this long as I had two shots before we left but the open door of the parties destination is in sight and it's fading. Of course, Jungkook said I should probably save the drinking for the party but I knew my nerves would get the better of me. We step in and many guys turn their heads. A good few look downs aimed at me before I have even reached the living room where the real party is at. Music vibrates the floor and actually gotten me excited for is was to come. I lean against the door frame and watch the party with a careful eye. He isn't in there is he? Jhope doesn't seem like the one to go into a loud crowded room like this by choice. Unless maybe he had the same idea as me and was going where he knew I would not plan on going.