Isle of Tranquility

When the autumn winds did blow...

I woke up in the dead of the night,
deluged in sweat and aghast.
Yet again that familiar fright,
which has haunted me in past.

Still heaving hard, my heartbeat racing,
I wiped those fear drops off my face.
Gulping down the cool water I closed my eyes,
for my thoughts to interlace.

I drifted down in the corridors of my memories,
in search of those moments of frolic.
Those happy times, ringing as distant chimes,
those euphoric days full of rollick.

***

It was that time of the year
when the winter was packing to leave,
and the smiling autumn
all set to enter, pulled up his sleeve.

I was then an aimless man,
a vagabond sans inspiration.
My life was like the days and nights,
running with no motivation.

But then, the autumn wind did blow
and an aroma of love, swept me off my feet.
Oh how fast did my adrenaline flow,
and made my dead heart beat.

She changed me from the man I was,
into a man with pride and a goal.
Her love brushed off my gloomliness,
and made me a happy soul.

How i enjoyed those moments of bliss,
the romantic evenings, the sensual kiss.
Hand in hand, those late night walks,
Insanely addictive, our never ending talks.

All my worries, tensions, agony and pains,
her one sight could vanish them.
I felt lucky at times,
to have in my life such a precious gem.

I couldn't have asked for a better life,
where I grew old watching her smile.
We'd rejoice for good in our sweet little world,
like in the giant blue, an isle.

But the fate did not unfortunately accept,
our script of fairy tales
and gave my heart a wound so severe,
not measurable on any scales.

An evil disease conspired with fate,
devastated me their callous ploy.
It stabbed my heartbeat, my lovely girl,
and plagued me off my joy.

In my arms, I carried my sweet heart,
to every help I could afford.
As a crazy bankrupt, i wildly ran
and prayed for her life to almighty lord.

Though she couldn't say
but her eyes did convey:
'' Stay happy my dear,
my loss you shall bear.
Forgive me for I leave you midway,
on this path we traversed, together to this day.
I wish to hold your hands again,
to smile and continue our journey
but fails me my blood and bone.
Forgive me my darling, for leaving you alone.''

And the heaven did not,
buzz their holy head.
Laid there she motionless,
on the death bed.

She was covered in white
and my life went black.
A supporting end gone,
string of my emotions now slack.

I cried like a kid, whose candy fell.
The pain i felt, i cannot tell.
I was addicted to her,
she my drug, my steroid.
But now gone forever, never to return
left in my aching heart, a huge void.

***

And it has been ages since,
but i cannot seem to let her go.
every night, haunts me the moment of our separation
as I remember the autumn wind that did blow.

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