*Ethan's POV*
"How are you doing?" Gray said walking in my room
"Not good" I said looking down. He came to my bed and sat down next to me
"She will be OK. You know that...right?"
"I wish it was that easy. I never thought such a thing would happen to someone close to me. Especially this close. I want to help her but she doesn't want my help. She's been ignoring me for about three days. She doesn't even answer my calls"
"Maybe she doesn't want you to get worried"
"When she doesn't answer me it will only make me worried......I just want to see her again and tell her that she is not alone but she keeps pushing me away. She doesn't want to see me"
"I'm sure time will fix everything. You just have to wait"
"What if time only made it worse?" I said and he stayed quiet. It has been three days that I have no news from Em. She keeps telling me that she doesn't want to hurt me but with ignoring me she is only making it worse. I want to be there with her but she doesn't want me to be with her. That was the last thing she told me. El gives me some news sometimes but I need to see her. I need to feel her. Emily, what are you doing to yourself?
I was just sitting on my bed. This is what I've been doing for the last three days till I heard the doorbell ring a couple of times. Someone is having a rush but who? EMILY? Please be Emily. I ran out of my room hoping to see my girlfriend but I saw her father. He was a mess
"Ethan.....we need to talk" Samuel said. Fuck....what now?
"What......did something happened? Is Em OK?" I said worried
"Yes she is but.....she doesn't want to stay like this"
"What does that mean?"
"We need her permission to take her to chemotherapy but she doesn't want to go. She says I've done enough harm. She is giving up. I need you to talk to her. She listens to you" he said. I was just shocked. Why would Em do such a thing? What is this girl doing? I walked out of the house a bit angry. I saw her family out of their house. I guess they want to give us a bit privacy. I walked in the house. I walked to her room. She was messy.
"I guess you heard the news" she said
"I did.....what are you doing Emily?"
"What do you think.....I'm giving up" she said standing up and facing me
"Why? Why are you giving up when everyone is fighting for you? Why don't you fight for yourself" I said calmly. I don't want to make things worst between me and Em.
"Because I'm too broken to stand up and fight back.....I've been fighting this cancer for years....years and look what I got" she said pointing at her eyes
"Emily please....don't do this to us"
"I had one beautiful thing on my face and it was my brown eyes. I loved them more than I should've but now......they are lost in a black and white filter.....every time I fought I lost something....what am I going to lose this time?"
"Please Emily.....don't....do you know what will happen if you go......what about us?..." I said getting closer to her
"I asked myself the same question but what about me?......I'm done hurting the people around me" She said taking a step back
"What do you mean hurting the people around you?....we want to be with you....you're not hurting us....you are only hurting yourself"
"Even if I go to chemotherapy I would only hurt myself.....do you know what that drug does to you? You'll lose your hair....and your strength. You will get so weak that you can't even walk.....I would die anyway....just with pain"
"You won't die....we will always find a way out...don't do this to me....I don't want to kiss a hard stone instead of your soft lips" I said. I started getting steps closer to her. Tears start falling down from her cheeks. I put my hands around her body. I missed her so much
"Ethan......I'm scared.....I'm so scared" she said between her tears
"I know baby girl.....I am too. But as long as we are together we don't need to be afraid. Not anymore" I said holding back tears. I can't see her like this
"Please Emily.....sign that thing.....stay with me.....at least let us make more memories"
"I will....just please stay with me.....don't let me go"
"I would never let you go" I said. I didn't want to break the hug. After a couple of minutes she broke the hug. I put my hand on her cheek and cleaned her tears with my thumb. I lend in and kissed her. I missed her kisses. I missed her so much. I will stay with her for as long as I can. I will make good memories with her. I will make her happy. I know she is not going to leave me. I won't let her go unless she asks me too.......
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Lovely Darkness // Ethan Dolan
Fanfiction(Completed) It all starts with an accident. She wasn't perfect. He didn't care. They were unbreakable. Nothing could come between them or..... Can it? Another story for Ethan. hope you like it
