Lovely Darkness // Ethan Dolan

Chapter 27

*Emily's POV*

I walked away from that light and put out my peace sign "peace bitch" I walked to the Ethan that was waiting for me.

"let's go home" he said holding my hand. He could see me but his face was still blurry for me. Fuck.....

He tightly grabbed my hand and we walked back. I don't even know where we are going. What is this home that he is talking about? I kept on following him till he was gone.....again. "oh.... Come on" I shouted. I was stuck in my body once again. I could hear the things that were happening around me. It was loud again. It was so annoying. Something was covering my face. Most likely my eyes.

The voices stopped as I felt a hand on mine. It was Ethan. God I missed him so much. Then I felt his lips on my hand. They were soft like always. I wish I could feel them with my lips. After a couple minutes I felt his hot breaths getting closer to my neck. "I love you baby girl and I will never let you go. Even if you ask me too" he softly said and put a soft kiss on my neck. With every breath that he let go on my neck, my heart beat got higher. It was higher than it should've but I liked it. I liked the feeling that he gave me. I like every second that passes with him. I love every hot breath he takes on my neck. Every kiss he puts on my body. Every little second with every little detail. I love it more than I should but I don't care. Even pain is good with him. Every pain hurts so good. With him, pain is bearable, darkness is light, lie is truth, poison is sweet. Nothing is the same with him. I'm not the same with him. He is my everything without him I have nothing. Without him I don't want anything. He was the only light in my darkness. He found me when I was lost in my pure darkness. He was the light that led me back home. Now I know what my imaginary Ethan meant by home.....his arms. His arms are my home. I don't want it any better.

He leaned back. This made me so sad. I still want to feel his hot breaths. He leaned back but didn't let go of my hand. He tightly grabbed it and he was rubbing it with his thumb. I felt another hand on mine. It was El. God I missed her so much.

"this bitch is not going anywhere"

"can't get rid of me this soon dick" I wish she could hear me.

"I know you can hear me. We missed you so much" how does she know that I can hear them? Ohhhhhhh......they probably saw my heart beat go high when Ethan said that in my ear. Oops.....

"I only wish you could hear me too" what would I do without my family. They were always with me. I was just so blind to see them, I mean.....literally blind.....get it? Ha......

I want to hold his hands. I want to tell all of them how much I care about them. It's never too late.....right? I wanted to open my eyes but that thing on my eyes was stopping me to do so. I tried to hold Ethan's hand. Just like the last time but it didn't work. I guess I'm out cold so deep well it was a hard surgery. Didn't expect anything else.......

I tried to be positive the way Ethan taught me to. Right now I have my lovely family next to me and Ethan is holding my hand. I could feel him. It wasn't enough but it's better than nothing right now......

.............

It took what felt like forever for me to get back my power. I couldn't open my eyes so I just held Ethan's hand. I held it tight and I didn't want to let go. His hands were warm like always and it warmed up my heart.

"she is awake" Ethan said. He wanted to let go of my hand and take the nurses but I didn't let him. I held his hand with all the power I had. I'm not letting him leave my hand again.

"you ain't going anywhere" I barely talked. Ethan slowly giggled. I missed this sound for the longest time.

"how are you bitch?" El said