THE REBEL SLAM 1: GRENDLE

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

"Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?..."

Naalala ni Grendle ang dad niya.

Ano kayang iniisip nito sa kanya? Ofcoarse he knew na nagbabanda siya dahil pera nito ang pinambili ng instruments niya. But, did he already watched him sing while playing his guitar?

Ngayon niya lang naitanong sa sarili ito. Dati ay iniiwasan niyang mag-isip ng mga bagay na may kinalaman sa dad niya. Coz he hated him.

"And do you think I'm wasting my time

Doing things I wanna do

But it hurts when you disapproved all along..."

Ngayon niya lang naiisip ang mga bagay na ayaw niyang isipin noon.

About his dad...

"But now I'd try hard to make it

I just wanna make you proud..."

Noong kaaalis ng mommy niya, he felt alone and sad. Gusto niyang tumakbo sa dad niya but he's always out. Hindi ilang beses na sinubukan niyang magpapansin dito but he ignored him. Hindi nga ba't noong elementary siya ay naging top one pa siya, pero wala siyang natanggap na recognition sa ama.

He suddenly realized na kaya siya nagpabili ng complete set ng instruments dito ay dahil gusto niyang punahin nito ang sinasabi ng ibang talent daw niya sa pagtugtog at pagkanta. But again, nadisappoint lang siya.

"I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't pretend that I'm alright

And you can't change me..."

He closed his eyes. He feel the pain once more. He hate this feeling but he can't control himself.

"Coz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect..."

'...she's pregnant and the father was not me...'

He can hear the pain on his father voice while saying it. Hanggang ngayon ay tila masakit pa rin dito ang nangyari. He got himself busy running their company but in the end, hindi pa rin pala ito nakamove on.

Tulad niya.

Samantalang ang mommy niya ay nakamove on agad kasama ang Chris na iyon at ang bago nitong anak.

Too bad. Masyado na'ng madaming nangyari that pushed him to hate his dad.

"I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero

All the days you spend with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care anymore..."

Naiinis siya sa kantang ito dahil naalala niya ang mga pinagdaanan niya noong tila walang pakialam sa kanya ang mga magulang. Akala niya ay sanay na siya. Pero hindi pa pala

"And now I try hard to make it

I just wanna make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you