heart on your sleeve

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A/N songs to listen to while reading 

come on and mess me up – cub sport
stuck with me – the neighbourhood

important author note at the end!! xx

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They keep driving. They let the sunset guide them, they let the stars mark their path.

The night before, they fell asleep in each other's arms. And Lauren threw the pills in their motels toilet while Camila paced the carpeted floor and poured herself and her thoughts for Lauren to catch, palms open and waiting.

They left their room door open, the cool night air bathing them both. And Camila's only wearing her sweatpants and bralette but when she sits next to Lauren, body spent as she wipes under her eyes; she's so beautiful. She's so beautiful Lauren thinks.

"You okay?"

Camila nods, she smiles, and it reaches her eyes this time. "Yeah I'm- I think I'm okay"

Lauren grins, making Camila bite her lip because when Lauren smiles she feels herself healing. She feels these little pieces in her chest fall together again from where they broke so many years ago.

"You know, I've always found your piercings really hot"

Camila rolls her eyes, shoving a laughing Lauren onto the bed, pinning her to the mattress as the older girl giggles.

"Really? And we were having such a cute moment baby"

Lauren's laughter dissolves as Camila kisses her, they lose themselves a moment. And Lauren just enjoys the feeling of Camila's body pressed against hers. How her abs flinch from the cold, how her palms run up and down Lauren's sides. How the curve of her smile feels against Lauren's lips.

She hopes she remembers this when she doesn't exist anymore. Because sometimes, Camila reminds her of the sun. And Lauren's just like, an asteroid or something.

And fuck, if the opportunity presented itself, she'd be cool burning up in Camila's light.

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They decide to utilize the weed Camila brought with them on a Sunday night. Another shitty motel, another neon lit pool, the same two love sick teenagers.

It's perfect.

Camila's got her legs in the water, breathing in the joint she rolled as she watches from the side of the pool how Lauren swims and ducks under the water. Camila leans back on her hands, closing her eyes and passing the joint to Lauren when she glides over; holding to Camila's legs as Camila places it in her mouth.

When she breathes in, her lungs protest. So loudly Lauren almost chokes on the draw. But she leans away after, blowing it out, Camila raising an impressed eyebrow as she takes it back to her mouth.

"Damn babygirl, no choking this time?"

Lauren splashes the other girl with water, making her laugh. "Shut up. I'm just not as used to it as you are"

Camila shrugs, not answering as she kicks her legs back and forth in the water.

"Can you stop doing that? You're kicking me"

"Sorry? I'm doing what baby?"

Camila pokes Lauren in the side with her toe, making her frown as the younger girl teasingly grins.

"I'll dunk you in the water Camz"

Camila presses her toe into Lauren's side harder, making her squeal. "Aw, little Lolo's ticklish!"