Never Let Me Go

Twelve

Meera's POV

"I love you Samar"

I said it with my eyes lingered on his, and he locked his lips on mine, kissing me, and it felt like as if our lips were molded to each other

It was hard for me to even imagine falling in love again, after Jay but Samar was something else

The way "I love" came from the bottom of my heart made me questioned if I ever really loved Jay

When I first fell in love with Jay it felt almost like a dream, I was untainted, untouched by anyone, I loved him blindly and desperately, I was so rushed by these powerful new emotions that I ignored all the signs that were telling me how destructive our relationship was

After being rejected all my life, to find someone who showed any kind of interest in me, made me believe that this is it, that he was the one, I accepted Jay with wide opened heart, I was so naive, I didn't know that people could be so harsh and cruel to not even care when they shatter other people's hearts into million pieces in a blink of an eye

But with Samar everything felt different, with Samar it wasn't a fairy tale, it was much better, it was real love

He slid one hand up my back and placed the other on the bed, he pushed his body up, lifting me with him never breaking the kiss as he sat on the edge of the bed, he took me on his lap, and I placed my hand on his shoulder to balance myself

He took me in his arms laying gentle kisses on my jaw line moving down to my throat, I let my head fall back, giving him more access to my neck, but his face dipped down, right above my dress neckline, he pressed his lips fiercely against my skin, leaving a trail of hot raw kisses along my collar bone up to the side of my neck

"You're so beautiful" he whispered the words in my ear as his hands stroked my back moving down to my hips, his other hand reached the hem of my dress, slowly sliding up along my thighs

Suddenly.. I flinched

Samar jerked his head back and looked at me "Are you ok?! Do you want me to stop?!" He asked with genuine concern, and I felt the heat rising in my cheeks, I didn't want him to stop, I just didn't know what's gotten into me

"N..No, I'm fine" I faked a smile, trying to hide my nervousness, but by the way Samar looked, I was sure he didn't buy it

Samar held my waist, helping me get off his lap, he stood for a few seconds with his back to me before turning around with a disturbed look on his face "Meera, I know that the first time we met I didn't make the best first impression, maybe that made you think that I'm a man who would force himself upon women, but believe me the last thing I want is to make you do something against your will, you know that right?"

I felt a real ache in my heart hearing him say those words with such sorrow, I can't believe I made him feel this way, Now he must really think that I'm resembling him to Jay which was something I would never do

I cupped his face with both hands "Of course I know that Samar, I would never think that about you"

He cleared his throat, and I could feel the hesitation in his voice "Then why did you...?! You don't want me to...?!

"I do, I really do, I just think it's because of the whole Jay situation that happened this morning, I was so scared that he might..." I felt the remaining words stuck in my throat