Story of a girl called Hermione Granger [Harmione]

11. A Little Step Away From Denial

(Night, after speaking to Harry)

It was past midnight. Hermione Granger was sitting on her study table in her room, contemplating something very deeply and then finally reached a conclusion.

'I just don't believe it. I am actually going to do it.' Hermione thought as she took out her diary from the table drawer. It was the same diary which her mum had given her as a Christmas present. She had forgotten about it, which was, until this night. Right now, her life was a right mess and she needed someplace to store all her thoughts. What could be better than a personal diary?

Since the day Harry Potter had entered in her life, she felt as though if she was losing her control of her life. She felt angry, sad, and happy, all at once. She desperately wanted to confide in someone about what was going on in her mind and how she was feeling. She was just so confused and scared of the things she was feeling. She thought about talking to Luna, but something held her back. It's not that she didn't trust her but she wasn't yet ready to confront her feelings in front of someone else.

So finally, she decided to try what her mum had told her when she gave her the diary.

"May be this could help?" Hermione said to herself.

She opened the diary. On the first page, there was a message from her mom.

Hermione,

This is one place where you can pour out your heart without being judged by anyone. It can be your secret keeper and a means to sort out your feelings. I hope that it would be as useful for you as it has been for me when I was your age.

Love,

Mum

Hermione smiled as she traced the words with her fingers. Somehow, she felt relaxed at this. She turned the page, picked up her pen and started writing.

Hi dear diary,

(Now I am saying Hi to a diary, I do really need a mental check-up. Damn you Harry Potter, it's all because of you.)

I am Hermione Granger. This is my first ever entry in the world of personal diaries. So I don't exactly know what and how to write in it. But then, I also never thought that I would ever be writing something like this, but here I am. I am just going to write whatever I feel like.

(Ha! Thank God, it's not my homework. Just imagine what would happen if a teacher is assigned to check the personal diaries. I would surely get a big ZERO.)

I think I am just getting off the track.

I am just feeling so girly...I mean I am actually writing about a boy who makes me feel ....I don't know what he makes me feel...But I know I do feel something...What exactly, is difficult to point at for now....But hey, I at least deserve a little bit leniency and some time to figure it out....I am new in all this after all.

Luna says that it was my destiny to meet Harry Potter. But then she believes in many things, which don't exist.

Ugh! I am getting sidetracked again.

Yes, so I was telling you about a boy, Harry Potter. I first met him on Christmas Evening... I was very nervous to see him. I never behaved nicely with him. Probably, I was scared that I would look like a loser in front of him. Somehow, I regret that now. After all, he didn't do anything to me.

He danced with me. I never admitted it to anyone but it felt very good to be in his arms...Oops! Now I am turning into an infatuated fan girl or more like Romilda. However, I can't help it right now. Also, I have to agree he is quite a skilled dancer.