so this morning was probably the most terrifying experience of my life
so i wake up regularly wake up around 6 and i went to sleep around 2
so in my world, i could walk into school with legit 2 hours of sleep and i'll be completely fine but today, it felt like i had slept for only 5 minutes
i had to look back at the date twice to see if it was still feburary 19th but nope, it's the 20th
it was kinda like that feeling you get when you're a long distance from home and you fall asleep in the car and then you get home 2 hours later but it feels like 2 minutes
it's like the sensation of vivid moving makes everything go faster
all of your thoughts, all of your emotions
my dreams have been so vivid and detailed for as long as i could remember, hence the reason why my nightmares were always scarier
~ flashback to me in kindergarten
"omg, de'yani i had a super scary dream last night! there was a green big monster!"
"well listen here, becky. my monster was as dark as a shadow and had gleaming yellow eyes. it looked deep into my soul and instantly stole my soul and returning it to his eyes and then disappeared into the darkness of the daylight."
~
my mind has the tendency to glob onto details when it can
for example, the other day i legit had a dream of what was to happen that day
and it ended off me looking at the clock
in my dream it was 1:34 pm
then all of the sudden i wake up and it's 7:16 am
basically what i'm trying to say is that my mind is playing tricks on me again
it feels like every time i wake up, i'm resurrecting
and now? i'm not even to sure if i'm in a dream right now
i may just wake up sooner or later. who knows?
anyway, have a blessed day *inserts heart*
- de'yani
