i met you a sun
i fell for you a star
and you left me the sky
you drowned me in manipulation
i focused on the anticipation
until i couldnt breathe
until i couldnt eat
i read your texts over and over in my mind
trying to find the perfect way to respond
so you wouldnt be upset with my messages
if it seemed like i sounded just a bit uninterested
i had trouble sleeping for a long time
i think of you most during the night
you said things a certain way that i liked
i started saying them too until i realized
my personality drained from my pores
including all the tears i had left, spilled for you
i got the old me back
but when i say old me
i mean the me from forever ago
when all i did was isolate myself
from everyone
when all i did was argue
with everyone
when all i did was be upset
about everything
i miss you, but...
i miss me sometimes, too
