what should i say,
im sorry?
what should i do,
forget you?
too bad
what have you been up to?
have you forgotten,
next week is my birthday,
will you be there?
you won't
how long has it been,
three years?
longer, shorter?
i dont really know
is that bad?
i've stopped counting
i dont have a reason to anymore
im not sad anymore
you don't care
you don't even have to act like you do
dont get me wrong, im still reminded
by stupid little things that make me cry
remember the chocolate, the "curse you"?
it's only two, but they're so big to me
and i think about them a lot
i think about the times
id rather have spent with someone else
when id do anything to go back
and spend the same moment with you
but just for a little while longer
im not sad anymore but i still miss you
and for that i am sorry
i am not sorry for not writing you letters
im not sorry for not backing you up when someone is talking crap
im sorry for forgetting the way you smell
im sorry for forgetting how you smile
im sorry for forgetting to wonder about you midday when everything is quiet
im sorry for forgetting how you used to call me "olivia"
im sorry for forgetting that i love you
im sorry for forgetting the happy moments during the bad ones
im sorry i drove you out, when you could've stayed
