book club // michael clifford

letter 09.

dear broken girl,

that's why you're so hidden.

i'm sorry,

i truly am,

no one deserves to go through that.

but,

don't listen to them,

because hunny,

you're beautiful,

you've got nothing to be ashamed of,

and you're worth something.

you are worth living.

please tell me,

if i'm intruding,

but,

is that why you're always wearing,

long sleeved tees and jumpers?

i'm not here to judge princess,

i'm here to help.

you see,

i know what you're going through.

them voices in your head?

i hear them too.

maybe together,

we can help each other,

escape.

instead of having to smoke,

your cigarettes for freedom,

we can finally,

live it.

so when the time's right,

we'll go yeah?

we'll runaway and be free.

deal?

oh,

i hope this makes you happy to know, 

when you said i was your secret,

like you are mine,

i smiled.

you know like the smile you talked about?

yeah that one,

and i'm doing it right now,

as i finish this letter on a happier note,

imagining you getting them little flutters,

i can feel crimson creeping onto my cheeks just thinking about it.

sincerely 

the boy who understands 

                                               x

p.s

it took everything in me,

to not to come over and hold you today,

to hold you and never let you go,

but i didn't.

because you're not mine to hold,

but hopefully,

i will be soon.