wings || kim seokjin

chapter 15

his death

(let's pretend that in 9 years, they repeated the wings tour)

soon it would be the last concert for their wings tour and the boys' schedule couldn't be more hectic. the seven boys practiced hard day and night to make sure they deliver only the best to their loyal armys.

most especially, jin practiced the hardest in bettering himself. to prove that he has a lot more to offer than what his company was making him to be.

jungkook was left in charge to lead their practice for the last week of their rehearsals for the final leg of the wings tour.

"okay, we're done with 21st century girls. we'll move on to blood sweat and tears now." jungkook said and everyone nodded

after executing the choreography, jungkook was still left unsatisfied. jungkook was now being a bit rude but everyone knew that when jungkook was assigned to something, he really meant business.

they repeated the difficult choreoghraphy at least 20 times in three hours and everyone was extremely fatigued.

"jin hyung, you need to work more on your dance. i don't think armys are going to be satisfied with the kind of performance you're showing."

wrong. so wrong.

"i understand. i'll work harder."

while everyone went out to eat dinner, jin was left in the practice room, repeating all of the difficult choreographies at least 5 times each song. he was so tired, but he knew he needed to be better, so he shrugged off the fatigue and kept on dancing and dancing and dancing until his lungs couldn't take it.

7:13 am of june 13th

a loud scream was heard from the bangtan dorm's practice room

everyone rushed to the practice room to see their eldest on the floor, unconscious.

"bring him to the hospital. now!" their leader ordered and everyone hurriedly followed

taehyung drove.

they were breaking every traffic law there was and nobody cared.

as soon as they got to the hospital, jin was sent to the emergency room. an hour later, he was sent to the icu. the members were confused, idle to the situation that was going on. they were clueless. until the doctor delivered them the news they never would've imagined they would receive

"he has stage 4 lung cancer. it looks like he's had it for quite some time now and the stress and fatigue he has experienced from all your concerts and dance practices made everything ten times worse. i'm afraid he might not wake up."

they were astounded. they never knew. jin didn't even show symptoms. not even a hint.

but somehow, they did know. the way jin's performance has become worse and he hasn't been singing live much lately. he's been doing a lot of vlives and he didn't really leave his room much. he didn't even talk much anymore which was very much unusual for a kim seokjin. one time, jungkook even found a syringe in jin's bed. but they all chose to ignore it because they thought everything was fine. well it's not.

not too long after the doctor announced his illness to them did he pass.

5:00 pm of june 13th

the machine that showed his heart rate made a heart dropping beep sound as it showed a straight line. his eyes never opened for good.

their hearts were shattered

"this is all my fault" jungkook said, his mouth dropping and tears uncontrollably flowing from his eyes

"it is. it's your fault!! jin hyung died because of you and your stupid perfectionism! you think you're all perfect but you're not! and look now! he's gone! jin hyung's gone and he's never coming back and it's all because of you!" yoongi cried and cried

"i'm... i'm so sorry." was all jungkook could say

they went back to the dorm to find food set up in the dining table and a cake with a number 9 shaped candle stuck on to it

just then they remembered

it's their 9th anniversary

namjoon received a lot of texts from pd nim saying that they need to shoot for kkul fm to celebrate bangtan's 9th anniversary.

  jungkook approached the dining table which had 8 sticky notes. one for each member and one for the whole group.

"my members, happy 9th anniversary to us! i hope for our many many many many more years together! i'm sorry if i haven't been the best but i'll work harder! we will never disband, araseo? fighting to us! oh, and please meet me in the practice room after you read this. i have something very important to tell you guys. i love you all very very much, remember that. i'll be practicing in the practice room! i'll wait." taehyung read

everyone burst in tears

jungkook silently read what was written in his sticky note

"my dear jungkookie, forgive me if i haven't been doing my best. i haven't been feeling well. don't worry, i will work harder for you and armys. i cooked your favorite lamb skewers so i hope we're alright now? i'm sorry again and i love you very much, kookie."

jungkook fell in tears as he realized what jin was trying to tell everyone

words jin always refused to use

good bye