this is a whole different story
about him
that changed my perspective,nearly 8 months ago
i met him
i seen him,he is real,finally,someone i've always dreamed of,he is real.
i can say,this is cheesy but,he is perfectly sculptured.
his jawline (damn sharp)
his smile
the way hes laughing,god,i have never wanted to missed anything in life with him on it
hes a lil bit sensitive,know nothing ( i think) about anything,my signs or something
hes kind of person who dont give a damn unless it was real,right in front of his face
he didnt accept signs,he accept real deal
but im not that kind of person
i was shy,careful,loving him from darkness
what people didnt see from him,i see it
i see him from a whole different sights of eyes
i tend to cry when i see him on person,that huge love i kept,felt for him was that real
probably people wouldve seen me as "over-reacting bitch" and bitch yes,iam,indeed.
he is my whole inspiration for writings,story,poem,or just kind of shit like this
we had this same bracelet,he wears it on left side of his hand,mine on right
i really interested of this coincidence stuff
i own this bracelet ever since before i got in to high school,so they cant call me a copycat bcs we own the same bracelet,right? i own this waaay before i met him,or even noticing him.
his bracelet color is more darker then mine,almost black. mine was brown
but still,this is a lovely coincidence
anyway,been months and i never revealed myself to him,i only confess to my closest friends,which is theyre super supportive about us being together (ugh so impossible)
hes 55 days older than me,im fine with that.
he is smart,passionate,really is a funny guy to a small group of people (not everyone),he is an introvert (knew this from a friend). that makes me a lil bit cautious,cs i didnt know him that well. thats why i never revealed myself to him,i never introduced my self,i never try to talk to him,i was so afraid that bad things is going to happen. i dont want him to keep a distance from me just because i revealing myself,even before we knew each other well. i have always wanted to know him,say hi,take a picture together,but my friend said "think about your pride,hold down a lil,chill" so i kept holding on,i dont want to risk myself for this.
loving in silence,seeing him from darkness,its been amazing. i have been blown away by him,
everything that he did.
he is on the main team of our school basketball team,the core four,along with his friends and seniors. i have became a looott more excited,i came in every time he is competing,im so proud of him,really really proud.
i dont know for how long i have been writing this,i said much about my feelings over him,its just an intro. i have a lot more to tell but i can't spill it into words.
i love him,i will support him,and i promised myself,he will be the last one.
- tuesday,3rd of april 2018
