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Sorry Im Broken(short)

Felix POV (high school au)
(Disclaimer: I'm not trying to offend anyone with this, there is nothing wrong with mental disorders it just means you're special, I suffer from mental disorders so I mean no offence to anyone and if you're easily offended maybe read a different part of the book)

Trigger warnings
Bullying
Depression
Suicide
Mental disorders
Bad relationship
Felix is a asshole (unintentionally)

It's been almost 3 years since I started dating Cry. Don't get me wrong I've loved ever second of it but it's been hard, and i know it's not his fault but..I just wish he was more like me. If he was normal people wouldn't bully him. I've started teaching him how to be normal but now he's just acting weirder he's so quiet and just not happy. But it's nothing important, he's nothing important. Once I fix him I won't be so embarrassed to be seen with him. No one knows we're dating I told him once he's normal again people will be able to know we're together but he's putting in no effort to fix himself he just keeps getting worse ugh he's so stupid sometimes.

Cry is at my house today, we're in the middle of his lessons to be normal and he's crying, again! He shouldn't be crying, that's not normal.

>>>>>time skip<<<<<<

Crys POV

I couldn't take it anymore. Everyday he told me that he loved me no matter what be he constantly was trying to change me. It's not like I wanna be this way, I wanna be what he calls normal, but I'm not. My parents always tell me that it doesn't matter I'm different because god made me this way for a reason and someday everyone is gonna regret ever being mean to me. "They don't know it yet but they're gonna love you" (favourite movie reference)

But I don't wanna wait. I wish Felix loved me now, he says we're meant to be together but not until I'm fixed. That's why I'm doing this, once I'm dead no one can call me broken because I'll be normal again. I slowly stand on top of the chair putting my head through the noose pulling it tighter I wrote a short note for my parents and then ended it all.

I'm sorry I'm broken. I wanted him to think I'm normal. I'm sorry I'm broken. He hated my flaws. I'm sorry I'm broken. Why can't he love me for me? I'm sorry I'm broken. He told me I was worthless. I'm sorry I'm broken. I know things would get better. I'm sorry I'm broken. But I couldn't handle the wait. I'm so sorry I'm broken.

(Disclaimer: I'm not trying to offend anyone with this, there is nothing wrong with mental disorders it just means you're special, I suffer from mental disorders so I mean no offence to anyone and if you're easily offended maybe read a different part of the book)

If I do end up offending a lot of people unintentionally, I will delete and post an apology