Believe me when I say that sexual abuse leaves your mind really fucked up...anything can make you remember about -that- day, anything could make you remember your abuser, you start to feel really scared being around people that looks or acts like your abuser, when you feel aroused you can't stop feeling guilty because you start to think about your abuser suddenly, and you just want to cry the whole day because you know how damn unfair was that it happened to you and you hate the fact that it gets you a lot.
And....other things that trauma makes you feel....that are less pretty........things you wish you didn't feel but you need to understand that is the way your mind is trying to cope...but you still hate yourself after all...
BUT REMEMBER THAT YOU WILL NOT ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THIS, EVERYTHING HEALS, YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING, IS NOT YOUR FAULT. FORGIVE AND LOVE YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE AND GOOD THINGS WILL HAPPEN TO YOU.
