I am in a loss of words. Out of all the people that would date him, it was Kaitlyn!? I had never been so freaked out and confused in my life. In my mind, I wondered how this would work. May I remind you, that John was 1 and a half feet taller than Kaitlyn. I picture this in my mind and it's literally an ant and a giant dating. Kyle on the other hand, was balling his eyes out, because he was laughing so hard. Kyle started making jokes about why was she dating him or why he couldn't ask anyone else instead of her. I wanted to say something, but by the look on John's face when Kyle said those jokes, I sat back, kept my mouth shut and hoping I would witness a fight between these too. John was pissed. He was getting angry, but he found a way to calm down and started to talk to me instead of Kyle. John asked me " Chris, what do you of me dating Kaitlyn"? In my head, I wanted to tell him that he and Kaitlyn could both go suck one. But I told him " You guys are perfect for each other". My god I could not hold back the cringe feeling I got when I said that. If I had a choice, I would have told him at least choose a girl better than her. Then I noticed something. I was jealous of John. He had a beautiful girl, that even through all the times that I hadn't talk to her, she was still attractive. It wasn't just her good looks. Her personality was perfect and she was one of the nicest people in school. Everything she put on. The shirts,dresses, jeans,flats, sandals, converse( everything that turns me on), he had it. .And what made matters worse, was that I accidentally walked by them in the hallway and they got too close. I was so fucking angry. I was so angry, because Kaitlyn seemed to find the perfect guy that loved her. And I had not experienced what love was. I felt lost in the world. Sure I had my crush on Emily, but I knew she'd wouldn't want to date me. I felt like utter shit. Later on in the year we all manage to be in the same class. John, Kaitlyn,Kyle, and I had a class called a study. It was a free period to do what ever you want to do. So what I did during that class was watch John and Kaitlyn in class. I was just trying to see what's they do. Maybe I could cockblock them. But then I realized that would be taking it way to far. So during the classes I would just watch them for 45 minutes every time I had class with them. Throughout what I saw, was mind boggling. I saw Johns arm wrapped around Kaitlyn. And they were making eye contact. One of those love glares. At that moment, I wanted to fun of both of them. I wanted to hurt them at a point. I wanted them to feel my pain and what I feel on the inside. So every chance I had, I took a jab at both of them. I said some pretty mean things to both of them. Especially to Kaitlyn. At the time I wanted to hate them. I called Kaitlyn things like a short gremlin, short enough to reach your dick so she can suck it, short prick. (I love her with all my heart and she knows this, but at the time I wanted to crush her dreams).
As for John, I called him things like, Finnefuck, Fatass, Poor excuse of a boyfriend and so many other things. Every day I always ask the same question " Out of all the boys you've could have dated, why him"? I still didn't understand why. The more I couldn't understand why, the more I wanted to hate them. I still didn't no what dating was or what love was. That was what kept on triggering this new side of me. A little time went by and I found out they broke up. And man I didn't even care at this point. It was around the end of the year and it surfaces that John was spreading rumors about Kaitlyn and was being dick to her as well. I stopped associating myself with him soon enough. After all the B.S. between Me, Kaitlyn, And John, It was already the last day of school. We had a school wide picnic. We all sat together with our friends and we did all sorts of stuff. We played football, Frisbee, and just ran around like a bunch of wild Baboons. While running around like a monkey on crack, I run right into Kaitlyn and OMG, she was looking beautiful. She was looking dead gorgeous. Her clothes were amazing. She had a purple summer dress on, wane was wearing brown thong sandals that were the perfect color, her hair got longer and it looked nice and smoove. She also had a flower in her hair. She had some amazing make up on, and her lip stick made her lips looks shiny, and kissable. And the best part was that the sun was shining on her, just right. She looked like a queen. I was so blown away on how great she looked, I completely forgot why I disliked her so much. I walked up to her and I said " Hi Kaitlyn". I saw her look up at me, and I can see the glow in her eyes. And she smiled back and said Hi back. When she smiled, I wished i was dating her at the time, because she looked even better with that smile. Her sounded so much better and less high pitches. She was perfect. I also told her that she look beautiful, and through all of her make up, I could see her blush. So I decided I want to tag along with her for the rest of the picnic. We met up with some of her friends and played all sorts of stuff. It was great until I made one bad move. We were playing tag and I grabbed her arm her left arm. She grabbed my right arm and it look like we were having a tug of war with our limbs. Kaitlyn told me to let go. Me being the pest I am, I don't let go. Kaitlyn looks at me, this time with a serious face, and says "Chris Jean, please let go or I'll kick you". I told her that she would kick me at all. Let's just say I need to work on my betting skills because they are trash. I open my legs up by accidentally and she kicked straight up right into my balls. I didn't let go, but I was in pain. Afterwards She tells me" Chris, do you want me to kick you again"?, but I didn't listen. So for the second time, I watched her foot come right up into my crotch with force behind it.
