Tears Of Love - Amy's Endeavor (COMPLETED)

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"Lalabas ba tayo ngayon?" I asked Ricky after clearing my throat. I found him in the living room and I've been staring at him for a long time already. I really cant imagine that he's really my husband!

He's very busy browsing his laptop like he's really doing something important there. May importante nga ba?

We're here for our honeymoon ngunit iba parin ang inaatupag niya. Am I that invisible to him?

Hinintay kong magsalita siya ngunit wala akong narinig na kahit isang salita mula sa kanya. Again, he ignored me and didn't even give me a single glance. Tahimik lang akong huminga ng malalim. W

My feelings for him started as little girl's infatuation until it turned into something tough and very powerful. I can't believe he's finally with me!

We're in Richmon for our honeymoon. One of his cousin let us stay here in their rest house. Pero imbes na mag honeymoon kami, he's trying his best to ignore me. Alam kong hindi parin niya natatanggap na mag asawa na kami. Alam kong galit pa siya dahil sa ginawa ko.

Hindi niya ako kinakausap, he often spent his time alone in the living room and he doesn't even want me around him. Paano naman kami mag ho-honeymoon kung ganoon?

But I don't want to fool myself dahil alam kong sa utak ko lang ang honeymoon na iniisip ko. Oo at kasal na kami pero parang malabong mangyari ang honeymoon na hinahangad ko. He surely hates me for what I did. He's totally apathetic to me, so uncaring, aloof and very different. Ibang iba na talaga.

"R-Ricky.." I tried to call him again top get his attention.

Bigla siyang tumayo.

"No." He answered like talking to me is not a good thing at all.

Tinitigan ko muna siya bago ako tumango at ngumiti ng bahagya kahit alam kong hindi siya nakatingin sa akin. I just want to ease the pain inside me; I just want to comfort myself. I just want to say to myself that it's okay. I just need patience right now. As what they say, beginning will always be the hardest.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago magsalita ."Uhm. Do you need anything, coffee--"

"Don't bother, please just stop talking to me..." He coldly interrupted me.

I stared at his face which was about twenty inches away from me. Napakaseryoso ng mukha niya, his serious eyes were directed to me. Ngunit hindi ko mabasa kung ano ang nasa isip niya.

Ganito siya makipag usap sa akin ngayon.

Napalunok ako. I did not talk anymore because I don't want to argue with him. Lalo pa at nandito kami para sa honeymoon namin.

His words are really sharp nowadays and I always get hurt everytime he talks to me. Ibang iba iyon sa pandinig ko dahil simula noong una naming pagkikita ay hindi niya ako kailanman pinagsalitaan ng ganito. Oo at palagi siyang umiiwas pero hindi ako nakarinig ng masasakit na salita mula sa kanya. Ngayon lang talaga siya naging ganito.

I truly understand why he treats me like a trash now, syempre ay dahil sa mga nagawa ko. But I know he'll see my worth soon. At alam kong mas madaling mangyari iyon ngayong kasal na kami.

Although sometimes, I wonder if I am even worthy. Sa kanya ko lang naramdaman na wala akong halaga dahil kahit kausapin ako ay hindi niya magawa.

"Just let me know if you need anything." I spoke again for the last time. I even smiled a vast but he did not react at all. He just turned his back on me.

Nagpapasalamat parin ako dahil nandito na siya at kasama ko. Siya lang ang lalaking nagpatibok ng puso ko at alam kong siya lang hanggang sa huli, nararamadaman ko iyon.