Life Hurts .1 (Growing up Series)

Growing Up

I don't want to grow up anymore.

When i was 10, i was scared of teenagers.
They where weird, sad, had black hair, wore dark clothing, drunk and did stupid things constantly. Always getting into trouble by their parents.

I never really understood until i became a teenager. Being a teenager is scary af.

Especially if you're struggling with a mental health disorder.

You can’t help but not do things, that would annoy your parents.

You drink to get rid of the empty feeling in your chest. To forget your every day problems.

Your stupid things, don't seem so stupid at the time. Because you want to be able to feel something again.Being a teenager is hell.

But being an adult is harder. I am not looking forward to it at all..

People expect you to have grown up, and snapped out of your little 'phrase'.

Get a well paid job, support yourself and whom ever else.

But how can you just snap out of it?
When i can't even get out of bed most days. Or even wiggle my toes. How the hell am i ment to get a job and do all the constant responsibilities..