My Book Of Sad Useless Poetry

『Numb』

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So tell me, how do you feel?

Me?

Well....

I've fell down a dark well and I don't know how to scream for help

My tongue seems to be swollen

And my heart is numb

I can't scream not even to my closest friends

I'm dying but I can't show it

What's wrong with me?

Why am I smiling when I want to cry?

Why am I living when I want to die?

Is this some sick joke by my brain?

Is there really a reason behind my existence?

Or am I just a blank paper flying meaningless in the air?

So many questions I can't answer

I want to know so many things about me

I want to see what's beyond this dark jungle that's filled with monsters

I want to know why do shadows only exist to people who smile the most

I hate how in the middle of this huge ocean

Everyone is trying to give me their hand

Yet, I'm still drowning

But I guess I just don't want to be saved

Maybe because I don't deserve it

I didn't even cry while writing this

Even my tears had dried out

Everyone is just distracting me from drowning

But I know the inevitable

I'll die

I just hope that I could answer at least one question in this quiz called life

I really hate leaving questions empty

So yeah anyways, never mind me, it's just a stupid feeling

What about you?