( *trigger warnings: self harm, suicide / mentions of abuse and death* )
Sinindi ni Yvon ang kandila ngunit hindi dumating si Unique.
Walang Unique Salonga na nagpakita sa pagsindi ng kandila, "UNIQUE? Wag ka magloloko, please."
"Sana nagtatago ka lang..."
"Ayoko na, sa impyerno na ang bagsak ko, hindi na ako tutulungan ni Yvon." paulit ulit na sabi ni Unique hanggang sa makapunta siya sa may ilog.
Tumapak si Unique sa may harang sa brigde.
Unique reminisced of the old times.
The blade was so close, it touched Unique's skin.
Unique remembered his first cut.
He kept on going deeper. Unique was deepening the cut.
"Ang sakit! Shit!" at binitawan niya ang blade.
Blood was flowing all around his arm.
Blood was dripping all over the bathroom floor.
"Ah, good times, nasampal pa ako ng nanay ko. Walang pakialam."
Inalala niya yung mga nanyari sa nakaraan niya.
Yung masasama.
When he saw his father broke his mother's arm.
When his father slapped him for taking away his alcohol.
When he first tried smoking.
When he first tried drinking.
"Natataranta na ako! Nasan ka na ba Unique?! NASAN KA NA?!" at lumabas si Yvon ng bahay.
When he first made out.
When he first tried the good shit.
"Salonga?! NASAN KA NA BA?!"
When he first committed suicide
When he first stole something.
When he first got his crime record.
When he first got to jail.
"NASAN KA NA BA UNIQUE?! HINDI KA NAMAN GAGO NO?!"
When he first fell in love.
"SHIT! HINDI KO NA KAYA! AYOKO NA! TATALON NA AKO--"
"GAGO! DIBA SABI KO TUTULUNGAN KITA?! ANONG GINAGAWA MO?! HINAHANAP KITA! BAKIT KA TATALON?! HANDA KA BANG MAMATAY SA GUILT KASI YOU CHOSE TO LIVE IN HELL TAPOS YOU WEREN'T ABLE TO MAKE MEMORIES WITH ME PA?! ANO BA UNIQUE?! SABI KO DIBA STAY STRONG?! ANONG NANYARI?!"
It was Yvon. Yvon stopped him. Just on time.
"Kala ko stay strong?!" umiiyak na si Yvon at inaalog alog si Unique.
"Gago ka! Patay ka na nga, papatayin mo pa sarili mo?!"
Unique had nothing to say, "Gago ako."
"Hell yeah you are! Sinasayang mo ang chance na binigay ng panginoon sayo!"
"Only lucky people like you get the chance to change yourself to be able to go to heaven." Dagdag ni Yvon.
Unique cried, "ANG HIRAP NA KASI! ayoko nang maranasan ito muli, ayoko nang mabuhay!"
"MATUTUNAW DIN ANG KANDILA! AYAW MO MABUHAY? MAGHINTAY KA PERO WAG MO MADALIIN!"
"Hindi lahat nakakaabot sa edad mo, yung iba nga namatay nung pinanganak sila eh."
"Wag mo sayangin ang chance na binigay ni Lord para sayo. I know na patay ka na, pero you need to be happy, i want you to be happy. Please, for me, for God. Do your best. You can do it."
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kandila • unique salonga
Spiritual[ UNDER EDITING ] "brown out nanaman?" An unsuspecting mortal involves herself in a bizarre case of a dead soul living in a candle, who is struggling to find an eternal place where he belongs. [ dedicated to: @YupImThatPsycho. ] © truphy 2018
