let me just-
you make me wanna be reckless
I've always been so cautious
but
I don't know
you're like
addicting
I get this fucking rush of feelings every time I see you, it's like
happiness-protectiveness-sunshine and my mind's just
soft
for once
but at the same time you amplify everything and make it better and I don't even know how you manage that, god, and sometimes you look at me and there's this stupid spark in your eyes and I want to just hold you and keep you safe and my mind's going 'mine, mine, mine'
and I mean, I don't know
you've seen me when I'm vulnerable and I don't let many people in like that because that's terrifying
it's so scary to open up
and I'm still hiding things because that's what I do, you know? I hide (and she was right when we fought and she said I run from everything, because I do run from everything, but she doesn't read this anyways)
I run from everything
I don't want to run
I want to throw caution to the wind and sneak behind our parents' backs and rebel and fight the fucking world and get us some shit apartment and a dog and we can get the fuck out of here
we'd be free
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YOU ARE READING
me, essentially
Non-FictionI was kinda high on the paint fumes and couldn't get to sleep last night so I wrote this to vent and now i'm publishing it enjoy