VULNERABLE HEARTS

• love isn't him anymore

[ LOVE ISN'T HIM ANYMORE ]

— i thought what i had was heaven, but it was only hell in disguise in a body and brown eyes.

what i thought of was love
was actually my demise,
it tore me apart and it
shred my heart in pieces.

he broke my soul in so
many ways i can't fathom
them anymore, and he
left my mind searching
for a purpose to live
and my heart to wonder,
was it actually love?

i question myself everyday
if what i did was right,
was leaving him correct
or was i only selfish to
protect myself, move on,
my mind tells me, but my
heart defies its wishes.

he hurt me, he beat me,
he crushed my spirit,
and yet here i am wishing
for his presence, aching
for a love that never
existed in my life.

i clung to the idea that
he was the right one
for me, ignoring those
who told me that he
would only leave me
disappointed and broken.

and after all these years
of ignorance and fake
bliss, i realized what i had
was pure torture and
manipulation in one bond.

i was wrong, i was wrong,
love isn't him anymore,
his idea of love was breaking
me to a point that i had
loathed my own being.

love isn't him anymore,
love is something you
can't put into words but
can feel with your very
heart and that can touch
your soul in all ways.

it is never too late to find
love in not only in others,
but in yourself and truly
taking care of yourself.

love isn't him anymore,
and for once, i'm happy
to know that now.

[ LOVE ISN'T HIM ANYMORE ]

okok i hope this poetry book doesn't flop like my other ones bc i can't even with that anymore lmao, have a good day !1! ♡