"How could you!" I yelled out, I couldn't have this anymore. all he would do was hurt me and I wanted it to stop.
"It's not all on me emma!" He breathed out, it was as if he couldn't see how much he was hurting me.
"Yeah, it isnt?" I said tears threatening to fall "tell me how it's my fault also!" I pushed him hard letting my anger get the best of me.
"You have got to be kidding me," he looked pained and I wanted to hug him and tell him I was sorry but I didn't want to look weak. no not this time, I wasn't giving in.
"Emma please," I moved away shaking my head
"No Calum, I think I've had enough" I sniffed
"Emma, no" his voiced cracked as he began to move closer
"Calum stop it," he tried reaching for me and I wouldn't have it "stop it" I said my voice more stern
"Don't leave me," he was crying and it seriously hurt not to hug him and whisper encouragements in his ear "I need you." he whipped his tears
"And I need you," I swallowed "but maybe this is a good thing yeah?"
"No"
"I'm gonna stay somewhere else for the night."
Maybe I didn't love him, how can I leave someone I love? it hurt so much, even physically but I knew that he didn't need me and what he did was the same thing he'd do next week.
I don't love him.
