Seventeen Imagines

Seungkwan - I like the way you lie

Seungkwan's POV

It's been 5 months since I proposed you to be my girlfriend. I like how you lied to me.

My presence may not be important to you but you are everything to me. My parents passed away since I was young and the only person I have now is you.

Although we had arguments, sometimes I just told myself not to get overreacting or I'll lose her yet you still left me.

Is this the feeling that you try to avoid? Well now, I like how it hurts.

"y/n!" I shouted your name, searching for you right after I woke up. You are not by my side and it makes me worry. I'm scared of you leaving me alone.

"y/n!"

I started to panic. "y/n!" I get off the bed and walked down to the kitchen. Luckily I saw you there, cooking for both of us.

I smile seeing you right in front of my eyes. "Hey, babe. You're awake." y/n passed me a sweet smile. I take a look at what she's cooking.

"I'm making your favorite breakfast," y/n said and put her apron away. I took a seat right in front of her. I love the smell. It used to be my mom who cooked this for me. y/n's cooks are just like my mom's.

that's one of her specialties.

"It's delicious!" I complimented. (Y/n) smiled happily hearing my compliment.

"I'm glad that you like it."

I bitterly smiled

But now, I can't taste your cooking anymore.

It lost forever and I can't find someone else who could cook the same way as you cook. I never get to taste my mom's cook anymore.

I miss you. I miss you so much.

I can't find your replacement. Indeed, I don't want to. I don't like the fact that you leave me and I can't make it up for you.

Just, why did you lied?

I know you want to protect my feelings. But it seems to get worse. If only you told me earlier, I may get to save you.

Why do people like to leave me?

I tried to put on a smile whenever I'm with my friends. A fake smile, to be specific. It hurts inside.

Move on is the best words but it's just easy to say but hard to do. After all this time, I still want you. I still thinking about you. Our moments together.

"Thanks for everything, y/n. I'll meet you again shortly. I'll be back, don't worry." I said in front of her champ.

"I love you" That was the last sentence I always said whenever I wanted to leave her champ.

"Seungkwan, I'm sorry." y/n whispered softly as she didn't have enough energy.

I hold her hand tight and put it on my cheek. I caressed her face carefully. Seeing her in this state really breaks my heart.

"Why don't you tell me?" that's not the question that should be asked right now but it really bothers me. I need an answer for it.

y/n smiled weakly while Seungkwan just sadly stares at her. "I'm sorry but I can't." Tears started to fall which makes my grip towards her become tighter.

I don't want to lose her. This is not the way to let her go.

"I think this is the best way to let me go," she said with a smile but I could see the pain in her eyes.

Maybe this is the best way for you but not for me. I will be suffering more.

I just nodded, too tired to deny the truth.

I sighed heavily.

You're the last person who died in front of my eyes. I don't want to see any death anymore. It just hurts me. I look like a murderer.