dear tobi,
my best friend.
i hate to be so cliche,
but you were the
"peanut butter to my jelly"
the "cheese to my macaroni"
the "bacon to my eggs"
alright you get it, i'm hungry.
you noticed tobi.
you noticed when
my toast was slightly burnt
or when my pasta was undercooked.
( metaphorically and physically,
boy the amount of times
the flat almost burnt down
is at least a mere 34 )
but you noticed was i wasn't fully right.
you noticed when the smile on my face
didn't match the sadness i felt inside.
and i give you all my recognition.
you dug so deep to try and
pull me out of the hole i was stuck in.
but there was just that one rock
you just couldn't get past.
i'm sorry.
out of all the words used
in every letter,
i think sorry was used the most.
but that's the only word that comes to mind.
i'm sorry that i didn't let you in.
i'm sorry you wasted all of your time
trying to get me to open up
just for me to shut you out.
for no reason really.
what was me closing myself in
going to do?
so many other things to do
and people to see
but you stuck with me.
thank you.
but why?
why did you waste your time like that?
i'm not special.
i didn't deserve all the
attention and love you gave me.
i didn't deserve you tobs.
i took a good soul
and put it through so much pain.
i hope now im gone
it will be cleansed.
and the world gets too
see your pretty smile
and cute lil giggle.
two of my favorite things about you.
i mean besides your
nurturing personality
your cheesy jokes
your sick style
your intelligence
your positivity
okay i have a lot of favorite things.
but tobi,
you're free!!
free from the sadness i put you through
free from the anger i put you through
free from the fear i put you through
you're free from stella grey.
do your shoulders feel lighter already?
i hope now
you can do the things
i was holding you back from.
so everything.
you can stop worrying about me.
you can stop canceling plans because of me.
you can stop crying because of me.
live your fucking life!!
your letter could go on and on.
and i could be here writing for days.
but like i said.
i want you to live your life.
it's okay tobs.
you're free now.
so go on.
do everything.
go crazy pal.
tobi brown
this is my
letter of love
to you.
YOU ARE READING
- letter of love ♡ sidemen + willne -
Fanfiction❝ these aren't my goodbye notes, treat them more like a letter of love. ❞ ↣ in which a girl writes letters to everyone to read after she goes. ↣ trigger warning - talks of suicide, self harm, etc.
