Random talks and stuff

Please read this

I'm sorry I'm posting this. Hell, I don't even know if people will see this. If you do, thank you for paying attention to my crap. Like, really.

I just need to get this off my chest.

So, I have a pretty good life. Both my parents care about me, I have two siblings and we all get along well in our own ways. I go to a school I'd consider pretty good. Good grades come easily to me, and I have a group of absolutely great friends. I've had my struggles before, don't get me wrong. But, still, pretty great.

But... a good amount of my friends... well, things could be better for a lot of them. I have a friend who lives in a trailer, I have a friend who's been accused of being a pedophile, and much more messed up stuff.

And... well... it makes me feel horrible. It makes me feel guilty that I have his great life while plenty of my friends don't.

I know that sounds stupid. I think it does too. But that's just the truth. And I hate it. I wish it wasn't. I wish all my friends had the kind of life I do. But they don't. And just knowing that... it's hard. Not as hard as anything they go through, but I... ugh. And now I feel like I'm ranting out my problems. It's a problem of mine. And now I feel horrible for feeling horrible. I'm a frikin mess some times. I just... I needed to say something. And I felt like there wasn't anyone I could talk to.

I'm sorry I'm ranting, but this feeling has been killing me for... I don't even know how long. A month? A few months. It's probably been in my subconscious for almost a year now. Probably more.

I don't know. And... I don't want people to feel bad for me. At all. I don't deserve it. But that's what I feel like is going to happen. Again, sorry for posting this. I just needed to say something.

This was just a pointless rant I probably shouldn't have even written. I'm repeating myself now. Jesus.

Anyways, Shining Sun will be updated when I get some comments on what to make the ending. And I'll do tags when I get tagged.

Well, that's all for this depressing, pointless rant.

Peace.