The Humiliations and Hassles of being a Teenage Nobody

I am trying-

I can't do this anymore-

I am trying so flippin hard... I listened to everyone's problems, and I want to be able to jus get really involved fir them but it is so hard.

All I can think about is Michael... i miss him... i miss his big dorky grin and those damn glasses... i miss the smell of his shampoo in his hair when we cuddle, i miss playing video games till morning with him-

I just mis him-
I miss him- so-so so much...

I want to go back to cuddling him and kissing him and being with him, but without him I cant eat- i cant sleep-

I can hardly breath- it feels like there is no air in hear—

God I am sooo broken-

I just can't do this anymore- I can't handle it, and I know, I know, its just- i am just having a meltdown, whatever but he is gone and I don't know where he is ir if he is coming back, or or why he left- if he left because of me or- i just- I