The Humiliations and Hassles of being a Teenage Nobody

I don't think I can do this. . .

Im sorry but i need to vent—

Is it possible to comfort two people like this and not snap?

I wanna be there for Hermy... he is my brother and doesn't really have anyone else, but it's difficult...

Just because he likes Jared doesn't mean he deserves to get his ass kicked!

Sure he flirted, but it was innocent—

And I wanna be there for Evan...

He is nervous and i get it, his boyfriend is being flirted with right as their relationship got stable...

But trying to find a solution for this?

I want to scream-
I want to throw a fit and pull out my hair and yell and shake and cry and—

I wanna go back to doing that every day. I want to throw a fit because if don't I keep it all inside—

I don't respond well to stress... I don't wanna be the one who figures out every one's problems until I figure out my own already...

I kinda wanna be the loser
I couldn't handle being chill as life would allow
I would crumble under the pressure of being a hero
But even just staying in line hurts

I don't wanna snap at Evan— but god dammit! He is supposed to be /my/ big brother, but

I just don't feel like i have anyone to rant to or ask for advice—

I mean, i know there is Michael, and i love Michael— but I don't wanna be that boyfriend that is always letting things out to him, that isn't the relationship I want with him, sure every once in a while, and I know he would be fine with it, but I don't want that for us...

Besides—
I like helping people with their problems, when I can solve them, the smiles make me feel great, but...  I just feel like... like im in this song...

My R
https://youtu.be/oiDU6zlsI4c