Alone

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As if I wished to be alone
I didn't fight it for long
And took the pill

A thick fog

An unbreathable blob

Stuck within 

I felt the need to burst out 
To let someone know I existed
But after a short while,
I found myself swallowing it
Just as I used to

Staring at my own shadow

My mind hazed

The sun beaming with its warmth
While I enjoyed my pill of loneliness
My eyes looking from time to time
At the people, I called friends during the day

Not bothering to shake the feeling off

Nor to fight the thoughts

I welcomed the pain

The loneliness

The part unseen by the people who knew me
A side so well disguised 
"You don't seem to be that type"
Right, I am just taking a dose to keep me in place
That is the only reason for it...

 If I wasn't feeling helpless

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