i still refuse to see michael. if he wants to be a bitch and replace me, then so fucking be it.
i've expanded though, and i go outside on occasion. i like to go to thomas gardens, which is a big public garden near my building. i hate the garden part because of all the people, but the forest on the edges is amazing. i spend a lot of time there now, mainly just lying on the dirt and thinking.
i usually go on my way home from therapy, both outpatient and my private sessions on saturday. they all asked where i was last week when i didn't show up or answer my phone, and my psychiatrist threatened inpatient if i ever miss another day of outpatient. the last thing i want is to end up with the real crazies, so i can't skip again. he knows my phone number and my address, so he told me he could send people to get me if i didn't show up.
the forest in thomas gardens is really nice. most people are scared of it because the trees are so dense that you can't see the sun between the trees, so i'm usually alone.
that's how i like it.
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