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-Taehyung's POV-


I'm scared

What is this? Why is it happening again?

How do I stop this?

How do I stop my feelings when they have gone too deep already?

I can't handle another heartbreak, I just can't

But no matter how much I want to get her off my mind, or make myself not care for her as much as I do now, I can't, cause I've fallen too deep...

And you know what happens when you've fallen too deep?

You get hurt

You always do



I lied on my bed trying to fall asleep, only to found a stream of tears slowly dripping from my eyes

A flashback suddenly occurred to me



~Flashback~

Taehyung: Should I really join?

Jimin: You're seriously doubting this chance of a lifetime? You've been dreaming of joining a KPOP group since you're I've met you, now you're thinking of rejecting the offer to join BTS?

Taehyung: Yeah, but...Irene...

Jimin: *sigh* I'm sure she'll understand

Taehyung: What if she doesn't? What if she breaks up with me? I love her waayyy too much Jimin...you won't understand...

Jimin: Maybe I won't Tae, but I know for a fact that you'll regret it if you don't join the group

Taehyung: *sigh* Maybe I should talk to her first?

Jimin: Yeah

I went to SMTOWN's company after my talk with Jimin to find Irene, she was a trainee there at the time so I went there to find her

Taehyung: Irene baby?

I went in their studio and saw two people kissing inside, their tongue basically in each other's throats

I was about to go to another room to look for Irene when I realised something, I turned to the couple kissing in front of me and took a closer look at them

Taehyung: I-Irene?

The girl pushed the guy away as she heard her name and widened her eyes as she saw me

Irene: Tae! Tae, it's not what it looks like

Taehyung: Yeah? Then what is it? How can you explain you CHEATING on me with Sehun?!

Tears started cascading down my face, as the reality hit me hard that my girlfriend for 3 years have been cheating on me

Irene: Taehyung...

Taehyung: You know what? To think I was about to risk my chance of joining BTS just cause of you...and to find out you're cheating on me this whole time

Irene: I'm sorry Tae, I just...I was about to tell you this but...I fell in love with Sehun...

Anger grew in me more and more and my tears just stopped

Taehyung: SO YOU JUST CHEAT ON ME? WITHOUT TELLING ME?

Irene: Tae...I'm sorry

Taehyung: WE'RE DONE! Don't you ever let me see you again!

~End~



I was so in love with her, so so in love, and I was blinded by it to realise that she had already fallen out of love with me

This can't be happening again, the heartbreak is too real, too f*cking bad

But I'm now realising I'm doing this again, I'm hurting myself again, but I just can't stop

Never had I ever thought I would be able to love a girl again, but Tzuyu...

What are you doing to me?




-Tzuyu's POV-


Love...

What is it really?

Still to this day, it's the biggest mystery to me

I grabbed my computer and typed in 'love' in the search bar

"Feel deep affection or sexual love for someone"

I mean I know I love my members, I know that's a love between friends, but what about love for a boy?

Yes, I've been in a relationship before, but a loveless and abusive one

A one without love in sight

Some of my haters will say that I'm cold or I don't show emotions well, but that's just how I am

My parents never loved me, I never loved them, I was abused as a child by my own brother and I had an abusive and loveless relationship before

To me, that's just how life worked

Loveless...

So how am I supposed to know what I feel for Jungkook is?

Or Taehyung...



I grabbed my phone and read the message Jungkook sent again

I sighed and threw my phone on the table

I'm mad at Jungkook, so mad and upset that he broke up with me because his feelings for Sana came back, but at the same time, I miss him so much

I'm so confused

All I want right now is to escape reality for a while just to wrap my head around this whole situation

How I wish that could just happen...



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A/N: Heyyy! I know some of you are more into Tzukook and are waiting for it, but I promise I haven't forgot about them and they will definitely appear again in the future😉

Also, I've recently got into Red Velvet. Irene is my bias so don't bash me Reveluvs😂 I just figured that because Taehyung and Irene are shipped a lot as well, so why not make her his ex😍

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