1000 WALLS [ poetry ]

my friend my enemy

my mind is my best friend
but yet also my enemy
it wont stop, it never ends
yet is somehow always there for me
i hear thrashing waves
see stormy skies
i wish i was there
but it's all in my minds eye
turbulent winds, abundent with change
clouds abhorred fill the seas with rain
the willows they bend
the blossoms the shake
i tremble in the midst
of my greatest mistake
the song so powerful i cover my ears
it hums with the melody of my most violent years
through toil and trouble
i wish to disguise
the hatred and longing
awake in my eyes
falling too far
too fast
too quick
i am breaking inside
and it's making me sick
I wish for a minute
alone in my head
where i am happy
and glad that i am not dead
so yes
my mind is my best friend as you can see
but it does make me wonder;
who could learn to love me?