All the things she couldn't say...

Goodbye

I stand at the foot of her bed

She's fast asleep

Or so I think till her eyes blink open

Slowly

Blearily

'What are you doing?'

I want to crawl into bed with her

Wrap my arms around her

Like a teddy bear I never want to outgrow

Sink my face into her neck and take in her essence

All that she is

All that she was

All that she ever will be

And whisper

Don'tleaveme

Don't leave me

D o n t  l e a v e  m e

I want to hold her till my fingers are numb

Till the world drowns out

And it is just us both

In a universe of our own

Shut out the world

Till I can't hear my heart scream

And holding her becomes enough to ease the pain

And loneliness I know is coming

But now, I just run my eyes over her face

Memorize her features

While I curse the reason I have to leave so early

The reason I would damn

(Because it is not important

Nothing but her is important)

If I could

But she would not listen

But rather badger till I leave

And I cannot do all of the things I want to

I cannot sink underneath her waves

So instead

I smile and hug her

Quickly

Scared I might hold on to her too tight

And my heart whispers

One heartbeat to another

'Goodbye'