So Far Away (pjy+mt)

chapter seven

I closed my eyes and shook my head

looking at the time, 6:24 jaebum should be waking up in six minutes till jaebum wakes up

I weighed my options

if I wake up now jaebum would be so worried

if I faked to be asleep, mark will come and wake me up and I can spend some time with him

I smiled to myself at the thought of that

wait, I sound like a creep

I have about 4 hours to sleep in so I decided to close my eyes sleep

six minutes later, I lay there with my back facing jaebum so he couldn't see that I was awake

he left after showering and eating

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hopefully my acting will be good enough

I felt a few fingers shake me

I shook it away and let out a groan

he tried again and I got up, "groggily"

"go shower while I make you some breakfast" he said with a smile and I climbed out of bed and into the shower

-

I was greeted with a lovely plate full of toasts and scrambled eggs

we ate silently

"jinyoung are you okay?" mark asked

"huh? yeah! why not" I nervously smiled

"well, you keep fidgeting"

"it's a habit of mine..." I said softly

if mark doesn't like me fidgeting, I should stop

I nervously finished up my meal and walked to class with mark

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I slept during the lesson but woke up with something warm over me

there was a note on my table which said

"hope you slept well jinyoungie, you can return me my jacket later, text me and we can meet" with his number written below

I smiled to myself embracing the jacket's warmth

even though I already had a long sleeve on, it was quite thin so the jacket didn't make it too hot

I wore his jacket and made my way to the library where I studied till five thirty

i quickly left to meet shownu

I looked down and handed him the money

suddenly, he pushed me onto the ground

while his gang started beating me up, he said to me "don't act like such a big shot wearing that jacket, you're not a jock and you don't deserve to hang out with them, you're just a nerd"

it hurt to move so I just lay there on the ground for awhile

when I got home, I realised that I haven't returned mark his jacket yet

"SHIT! he's going to be so mad he wouldn't want to talk to me anymore way to go jinyoung! wrecking a friendship before it even began"

I quickly pulled out my phone, keyed in his number and texted him

mark

hi mark, jinyoung here
I'm sorry for not returning
your jacket I'll come find you now
where are you?

I sat on the bed and anxiously waited for his reply

oh no, he's mad he's mad

I threw myself on my bed and groaned out loud

I tried texting him again

I'm really sorry mark
it was very careless of me
I was studying at the library
and I lost track of time

still no reply!

I stared at my phone for a few minutes and decided to try again

I'm really sorry
I understand if you're mad
and I understand if you don't want
to be friends anymore
that's if you had any intentions
of being my Friend
I just hope that it won't interfere
with you and jaebum's friendship
I'm sorry once again...

I threw my phone on the floor and started crying without even knowing

I'm just a horrible human being in general, destroying a friendship before it even starts

why can't I be more like jaebum

why can't I find myself some friends

why am I so hard to like

I turned to face the wall and continued sobbing into my pillow