Thoughts

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I'm so fucked up. It's funny, because not so long ago, I thought I finally knew what I was doing with my life, and it's something that not a lot of people know. But now, I'm back at the beginning, I'm back at the same stage than the others. I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing with my life. I tell myself every night that tomorrow I'll start acting good again, I'll start to act like I did for a while, to act like the perfect little girl, but the truth is that this period is over now, it was just a little joke from myself, a joke that isn't funny at all right now but that might've been if you look at it from a different angle. I tried so hard to be the best, and I actually succeeded but It's not who I am. It's not who I'm supposed to be even though I can do it. Then, you'll ask, who am I supposed to be? And I'll answer with the most honesty possible, I think I'm just meant to be lost, to be fucked up, to experience some stuff that aren't meant for everyone, to be free. 

Maybe that's what I'm supposed to be. 

Free.

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