Heartsick

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You were a friend of mine
Tears ran down my face
How could you do this?
I believed i was in a safe place
How did i not see the looks in your eyes
It was hungry murderous
Because of you i fear all
I now live in fear
I am afraid of any man who comes even remotely near
I walk alone now
I tried to be strong
I wanted to close my eyes and
Forget everything who you were
What was happening
You're not a man
Not a little
Not at all
As much as you hurt me
I owe you thanks as well
I still have a death wish..