Just Right (Jackson Imagine) (GOT7)

Chapter XXXI

I woke up as I felt his chest rise and fall abruptly but with a really tiny sound coming off of it that I registered as a sneeze. He covered his nose and I fluttered my eyes open, getting blind by the bright sunlight coming from the window.

"Oh.. sorry baby, I woke you up. Go back to sleep"

I pressed my cheek back down on his clothed chest and moved to a different position hugging him tigtger with one arm

He brought his hand back up and massaged my head as he pressed his lips in a long kiss against the top of my head which made me look back up

"You missed the spot" I mumbled above a whisper making him smiled and look down at my lips before leaning back down for a kiss on the lips this time

As if it was magic, all sleep disappeared from my body as I remembered mid kiss that I still had Jackson's letter to read. The intriguing "Important" letter that he wanted me to read so badly last night but then chickened out

I pulled away from the kiss and rolled over and reached out to my table picking up the envelope

"Agh.. this is so embarrassing to be here while you read it" he commented leaning his head away from me

"Oh.. what is that? Do you want me to read out loud?"

"Yah!! Haeju!! Don't mock me!!" He mumbled turning his face back to me

I leaned up and caught his lips for a soft peck "You know I love your soft side.. It's adorable that you're still so embarrassed by it"

He took a deep breath watching me open the envelope and lean back my head on his chest. He stood there looking at the ceiling as I opened up, submerging completely in his awfully cute handwriting

Kim Haeju,

You must be surprised to see a bouquet of flowers in front of you.. it may seem like a normal cheap valentines day gift, but it truly isn't.. you see? Everysine flower has a purpose. If you count them, you count 17, which was the day we met at the fansign... the day my heart started pounding incredibly hard for a fan in the middle of the sea of people.. for the fan that stood out from the crowd.. my biggest fan now.. The entire bouquet represents the sea of people where you were.. my fans are all beautiful, but you are different.. my love for you is different.. it shall never die. That's why this bouquet essencially represents my love for you. I will love you until the very last flower turns brown.. until then, you have my entire heart.. and you may think this is a sad thing to say, but as time goes on, you'll discover what I'm talking about..

It's hard to explain it without giving it all away, and you know that with you, my words get all confused and sometimes don't make sense.. but I hope you like them just about half as much as I love you.. you're my everything, my rock, my girl, my Haeju..

My beautiful rose"

I frowned reading the letter over and over again not really understanding what he meant with "I will love you until the very last rose turns brown"

I looked up clearly confused and saw him with his eyes closed

"I was tired of rewriting it over and over again.. believe me, the other versions are even more confusing" he sighed opening his eyes

I bit my lip and sat up throwing my legs out the bed and grabbing his hand "Come with me"

"What? Why?"

I walked out the living room and into the kitchen where the bouquet was, unfortunately, the flowers were already cabing in since it was the second day

I looked at the bouquet and saw the middle rose was still intact, while the others were already a faded red and turning brown at the edge of their petals

Jackson came sleeply and slowly behind me so I turned around after taking that rose out of the bouquet

"This one is a fake one huh?"

He leaned against the door frame while crossing his arms and nodding "My girlfriend is so smart.. should I be worried or proud?"

I looked back at the flower and then back at the bouquet "You are a dream.. this all still feels like a dream" I smiled while aproaching him with the flower in my hands "Here, hold this"

He frowned leaning up straight and grabbing th flower

"Be careful.. that's my heart.. don't let it fall ok?"

He nodded still confused as to what I was talking about. I passed by him and got back into the bedroom as he followed me

I hrabbed his hand and sat him on the bed while clearing my throat and taking a deep breath

"That's my heart Jackson, don't let it fall ok? Don't break it.. Don't bend it.. Don't hurt my heart ok?" I asked again seeing him get more and more confused the more I talked

"Haej-"

"It's an innocent heart Jackson" I interrupted him picking the flower up and putting it on the table beside the bed "It's an inexperienced heart.. a new heart.. a pure heart.. ok?" I admitted closing my mouth shut

His face turned serious as he probably finally understood what this was all about. I didn't want to admit it to him since I was in my early 20s.. I didn't want him to think he had a loser as a girlfriend..

"Haeju, we don't have to do it, I didn't do this beca-"

"I want to.. we've neger talked about this, but I know you think about it.. I know you don't want to pressure me and that's why you don't bring it up.. but I'm the one bringing it up now.."

"Then let's just talk, this is serious.."

I shook my head and smiled bringing my hand up to the side of his face "Jackson.. please stop getting scared for both of us.."

And with that I took a step closer leaning down to kiss his lips in a new different way. I put my knee on the bed next to his legs and he wrapped his arms around my waist as I brought the other knee up as well, so that I could be on his lap

Our lips were still moving in sync. That is until I started grinding on him. He broke our kiss and stared at me in the eyes.. his cheeks were going red. His eyes were seeking an approval from mine which I gave him by nodding my head. His hand slided down the curve of my back and rested on my ass while the other one came up to my chin "Are you sure you want to do this?"

"I am"

His eyes jumped in between mine. His hand came to my back and he lifted me up so that he could throw me carefully on the bed.

Our gazed locked once again until he looked at my lips again.. his hand came to my leg and the other one kept him up and a little away from me so that we could see eachother well. His necklace was dangling between us so I grabbed it and looked back up at his eyes feeling now nervous about what was about to happen..

I looked back to his eyes feeling a jolt of courage coming from within my heart.. as if it ran my spine

"I love you Jackson.. I want you to be my first and last.."

He bit his lips and smiled sweetly.. it was an adorable worried smile, but I still felt all the love he had for me in it

"I love you to.. but I want you to b-"

"I'm sure.. you are the one"

He shook his head and closed his eyes "Don't say dangerous things Kim Haeju"

"Less talk, more love"

He looked at me one last time and smiled looking down at my lips before kissing me, this time I brought my hands up to the sides of his face while the one he had on my leg ran my skin and rested in my hips

This rose is like my heart.... it's yours..