❝paper moon❞ renhyuck

❝two❞

The room was filled with awkward silence, the only thing that had the pride to make sound was utensils meeting with plates or the sound of Donghyuck chewing on the hospital meal.

Hyuck was on his bed facing Renjun, watching carefully how the other played with his food with a blank look on his face. He assumed the other was zoned out, dancing in his thoughts, but the reality was that Renjun had no appetite. No matter how many times doctors told him that the only way to recover is to eat, and a lot not just a few tiny bites here and there, he didnt didn't seem to get any in his mouth.

❝do you want the meat? I don't really feel like eating it.❞

Hyuck shook his head at the older's question.

❝you need to eat it, it gives you strength, and by the looks of it you're weak. so eat up, honey.❞

With that Donghyuck took a sip from his glass and was pleased to see Renjun put one of the slices in his mouth, chewing on it slowly.

Renjun didn't like the taste, nor the texture, but he knew that Hyuck would only start bothering him more if he didn't, that is how the boy was. Donhyuck was actually given the task to look after Renjun for a while, so that's what he did, and making sure that the other ate was one of those times he had to help.

Soon all the meat from his bowl was gone and all that was left was rice with some sauce. Renjun already felt full, so he didn't even try to force that in.

❝i think that's all I can do.❞

❝no, no. A mouthful of rice, then you'll be excused, otherwise I'll come over there and push it in.❞

With a sigh Renjun picked up some rice with his chopsticks and ate it. He wasn't used to eating that much in a morning, well, in general. He always had his food in small portions and what he had that morning was too much.

❝good job! Improvement I'd say. If you don't want more, can you give me the onigiri?❞

Renjun gave Hyuck a confused look, but handed the boy the wanted treat nonetheless. Donghyuck smiled as he stuffed it in his mouth and chewed on it with happiness.

Renjun didn't understand how he could eat that much. Hyuck had eaten all of his own food including the onigiri, which he gave to the boy, and it seemed like all of that wasn't enough.

The doctor came in the room and sat on the chair next to Renjun's bed.

Renjun always got an horrible feeling, when his doctor appeared, he might've even been anxious every time he saw him. Shame was also the feeling he often felt around the said male, he really didn't want to be in the hospital.

❝good morning, Renjun, hopefully you ate your breakfast. I have something to tell you, so please listen carefully. From tomorrow on Dr Moon is taking care of you, he's a therapist and he'll make you feel normal, happy even. He'll tell you more about it, when he meets you; the sessions and such.❞

The doctor gave him a smile and then left.

The sick feeling from his stomach faded and he relaxed. Renjun didn't really understand why he'd need a therapist, he was just fat, a therapist can't help him lose any weight.

❝oh, Dr Moon is nice. From what I've heard he has helped a lot of people come to their senses and find their happiness or even their meaning of life. I'm sure you'll be well soon.❞

Donghyuck spoke, not knowing how his words would affect his roommate. He just hoped that the other wouldn't feel stressed or anything so about having appointments with a therapist so suddenly.

❝but why? I don't need any help with anything.❞

❝renjun, you'll see tomorrow, I don't want to say anything wrong to worsen your condition.❞

Hyuck scratched his collarbone and let out a quiet and an awkward laugh. He was well aware of the fact that most of the times his words can be taken in a wrong way as they slip through his lips and those situations never end up positively. Unless never talking to a person ever again was considered a good thing.

The silence they both knew so well took over the mood once again.

Renjun started to feel interest in Donghyuck. It seemed like the boy's additude was quite similar to a cat. Sometimes care free while at other times extra careful, especially with words. Hyuck had even called him honey, now he couldn't even tell him the reason of why Renjun has to go to see a therapist.

❝well, Donghyuck. What kind of a person are you? What are your interest?❞

Hyuck gave out a giggle:

❝talking about interests, why are you suddenly interested in me?❞

❝since we're going to be in the same room together for a while, why not get familiar with each other? It's kind of awkward not knowing anything about the person you're sleeping next to everyday and who nags at me.❞

❝you're making it sound like we're married.❞

For that Renjun gave Hyuck a cold look.

❝but I'll answer your questions anyway. I'm an annoying person I guess? Also I try to be kind and helpful, that's why I nag at you, so there's more to come~ as for my interests, I like to read and sing actually. Singing is my passion, I wanted to become a singer, but I ended up in the hospital instead, I had to quit the opportunity I had. What about you? What kind of a person are you, Renjun?❞

There was no time to think, Renjun had to reply right away. Although he wanted to ask why he was in the hospital, he decided he'll leave questions for some other time in this conversation.

❝well, I'm more conserved? I don't really like talking and such, but I really love to dance, ballet for an example, I've been learning it for years, even had the chance to perform on big stages, but I got weak at some point and I had to end it and now I'm here, just like you.❞

❝could you dance for me sometime?❞

Renjun was quite shocked to hear that.

Could you dance for me?

That sentence with the soft voice sounded so fluttering. He hid his smile and nodded.

❝i guess yeah, when I get better and stronger of course. Why did you have to come here? You seem perfectly fine to me.❞

Hyuck only shrugged.

❝i don't know why I have to stay here, but the reason why I got here is because I had a kidney failure. The part where it doesn't exist hurts, too, so I can't walk properly. They're looking for a donor, so hopefully I'll get out of here then.❞

Hearing the last few words actually made Renjun a bit sad. Even if Hyuck nagged at him or was a bit annoying at times, he liked his company. There was never any uncomfortable moments, he actually felt safe with Hyuck around.

❝i hope you get the donor soon then, but isn't it possible to just live with one kidney? You only need one anyway.❞

❝i honestly have no idea, I've been wondering the same thing.❞