PHILOPHOBIA>>SeungJin

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HERPETOPHOBIA>> fear of reptiles.
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Seungmins POV:

I looked outside of the hotel window watching the sunset fall from hues of pink and purple to oranges and yellows and then to the dark black starry sky, the air was cool and damp from where it had rained earlier. I wrapped my dressing gown tighter around my body trying to keep the warmth in but every so often I let out a little shiver, I had thought about closing the windows but part of me wanted to stay here, sitting on my bed with the windows wide open and cold. I felt guilty for saying those things to Minseon, he wants me to be happy but how am I supposed to live happily knowing he's sad? I just wanted to be able to do something right for once in my life that's why I told Hyunjin and Minseon to meet me in the hotels garden in the evening, I needed to talk to them but first I needed to think. It was wrong to be in love with both but end up only choosing one so this time I was going to be sure of something for the first time in my life. No more leading them on, I had to be truthful with them.

I opened the door when I heard a light knock, I smiled to myself seeing Jisung standing there. My best friend who I hadn't been able to talk to in so long, the best friend who I had been growing apart from every since I met the two troublesome boys.

''Hey seungminnie.'' He smiled sweetly and gave me a big hug, he didn't have to say anything but I knew he knew how I was feeling.

''Hey jisungie'' I sighed into his hug as I gently closed the door.
''I missed you.'' I missed talking to him, I hadn't realised how much just seeing you best friend could help.

''Boys huh?'' He laughed lightly as we sat on my bed.

''Yeah, I guess you could say that.'' I muttered laying down and putting my head on his lap.

''I never thought I'd say this but I am glad Minho's the only person in love with me at this moment in time.'' He stated squishing my cheeks to try to make me smile again.

''Yeah and for the first time in my life I take back wanting to have people in love with me.'' I well and truly felt like an ass, I should've realised how Minseon felt sooner. Maybe then we wouldn't be in this position.

''So which one is the lucky man who'll have the honour to call them selves your boyfriend?'' He asked looking down at me expectantly.

''I don't know it's all so complicated, I need to think everything through. It's so hard. I shouldn't have to choose.'' I groaned squeezing my eyes shut as an attempt to stop the head ache I feel already forming.

He hummed as if he understood what I meant. ''How did you know that you loved Minho?'' I asked trying to find any way in which knowing might help me.

''Well, when I look at him I don't instantly think  'oh my goodness he's so attractive' it is more of an adoring thought like even if he wasn't the most attractive man I've laid my eyes on then it wouldn't matter because I still love him. I just wanted to be around him a lot and I felt happy just seeing him happy. That's how I knew.'' I smiled knowing that my best friend was happy, Minho and Jisung really worked well together.

''I think I may know now.''

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A:n/ The end is near lovelies, next chapter will be the ending but I have two endings planned out! One for Hyunjin and one for Minseon so you can choose which one you prefer 💖

-Author Bee 🐝