NKOTB-(One Shots/Imagines)

19. You have a panic attack & he comforts you: Jordan Knight

There will be 2 parts to this.

Part 1 will be young J.K comforting you.

Part 2 will be present J.K comforting you.

I understand that not everybody has all or some of the symptoms that I'm about to include. These are just the ones that apply to me, from personal experience.

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It was yet another stressful day of the week for you. Work was terrible, you were scheduled long shifts due to school being costly. Things were getting overwhelming and everything seemed to be lacking control. You rarely had time for yourself or anything for the matter. You stopped seeing your friends as well as your lovely boyfriend who has been far too busy with 'show business' to notice that you were losing your sanity.

You were relieved that Jordan didn't see you as much as usual since you didn't want him to see you this way. You've had nights of restlessness, meaning that in the morning, whatever little sleep you had, was still not enough to have you functioning correctly. Your body trembled and ached from having little to no energy. You were very worn out with the baggage you carried. Loss of appetite, lack of interest and gloomy days became part of your daily routine. So far it hasn't gotten too bad to the point where you crash out completely. But you didn't doubt that eventually, the world would collapse on you. Days were not enjoyable, and you terribly missed Jordan. He would usually keep a smile on your face or kiss away your anxiousness when he sensed it.

Sometimes you'd play NKOTB's 'Hangin' Tough' album just to hear his soft voice. You didn't want to call him even though he always assured you that it was fine as long as you knew when he'd be on the tour bus after the show. But you knew that Jordan would no doubt notice your uneasiness through the phone, he'd pick up on your shaky voice, and your long silence. Making him feel guilty for not being there was the last thing you wanted to do. 

Spending time alone was mortifying to you since you felt like you were walking on shards of glass. Everything scared you, little creaks, bumps, noises etc. You haven't had a good well rested sleep since the day NKOTB left on tour. Things were just getting too much to the point where you needed to keep your mind as occupied as possible. So you took on more hours of work, tried to get ahead of your papers for college just to get your mind off whatever negative thoughts threatened to ruin your day.  Sometimes you'd cry yourself to sleep when it became unbearable and you wanted nothing more than to wake up in a decade or two

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It was one Friday evening, and you had absolutely nothing to do. Your friend from college tried to convince you into going with her to a party that one of her roommates was throwing. You kindly denied claiming that you had too much on your plate and needed to start working on some projects for your classes. But you finished all of them the week before, and to all your hard work, you felt burnt out from doing too much.

Jordan had tried to contact you on many occasions but you always answered and claimed that you were too busy.

Your heart ached for him. You needed him, his hugs, his kisses, his soft words, and his comfort. Your anxiety has been feeding off you since he left. Your treatment was no match for Jordan. He always seemed to know what to say or do to make it all better. And if it didn't get better, he'd stay with you until it passed.

Your mind wandered to how much longer you needed to wait to see him again. You looked at your calendar and to your dismay, it had only been like 2 months since the tour started. 'Really?' you whispered in frustration. You groaned and decided to take a shower and afterward, thought about having chamomile tea and then watch a movie or two.