MUTEIFUL ~ PJM&MYG [DISCONTINUED]

XIV

(yoongi pov)

i walk into my homeroom with my head to the floor and my bad scraping across the ground.

everyone in the class stares at me but i don't give a shit, i don't care anymore.

im a shit person, they knew it all along.

i never listened.

i ruffle my bangs across my face so it's almost impossible to see my bloodshot eyes, and i sit down in my chair with my head in the palms of my hands.

"y-yoongi?"

i nod my head slightly before looking at hoseok.

(YO THIS IS RANDOM BUT HOSEOK AUTOCORRECTED TO GOSPEL AND IM WHEEZING RN BAHAH)

"are you okay? why are you crying?"

i reach up towards my eyes to feel.. tears.

i.. was crying?

i never cry in public..

i guess i was too numb to feel it..

i look back at hoseok and shrug, what else am i supposed to say?

'oh it's nothing, i'm just crying over a fucking boy. no homo though.'

nah, that's too weird.

*ringalingaling*

it's first period already?

i turn to hoseok and tap him on the shoulder.

"mhm?"

"what lesson do we have now?"

"math."

"shit."

i quickly turned away, grabbed my bag and ran out of the classroom.

straight to the toilets.

i slammed my bag into the corner of the room and leant on the bathroom sink.

shaking my head vigorously, i let the tears that were prickling at my eyes fall.

"i can't go today. i can't. i don't want to see it. please. please let me stay here and not get caught. i can't go. i-"

*sniff*

i spun around and stared at the only closed cubicle in the corner of the bathroom.

wiping my eyes, i slowly crept towards it, reaching out my hand.

"h-hello?"

i knocked gently on the door, not wanting to scare the person inside.

*more sniffs*

"are you okay in there?"

i quietly picked the lock and slowly opened the door.

a boy.

a boy that looked so heartbroken and lost.

a boy that had tear stains running down this pale cheeks.

a boy that had even worse bloodshot eyes than me.

a boy that i knew wasn't okay.

a boy, named jungkook.

~

bet yall thought it was jimin.

im not that stupid guyssss.

well i guess i am for cOMPLETELY FORGETTING THIS BOOK IM SORRY.

i'll try and update more now.

key word - TRY

alsooo i went to the bts london concert on october 10!

totally did not cry six times - i mean what..

i miss them yo :((

oh also please vote, this book is as dry as my bank account - if i even had one.

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