in case I can't explain why

too late

warning: sexual content

you swept me off my feet
lips pressed to my neck
as you carried me to the bed
and set me down softly, gently

you climbed on top of me
hovering slightly above my body
I looked up with pleading eyes
but yours were focused on my body

I wanted to say "I changed my mind"
or "I don't feel comfortable anymore"
but I failed to say a single thing
as you silenced my words with your lips

you pulled my waistband down swiftly
and you tossed my leggings aside
as your fingers began to crawl
slowly between my thighs

slipping past my underwear
you slid your fingers into me
I gasped with shock
but you must've thought it was desire

you began to explore
as I squeezed my mouth shut
I was afraid to cry out
I didn't want to upset you

soon you grew impatient
your greedy eyes wanted more
I knew what was coming
as your jeans dropped to the floor

you stripped your underwear off
then went to work with mine
one hand pinned me to the bed
while your other opened up my thighs

I gave you a look, begging,
I don't want to do this
but you didn't pay attention
all you wanted was to be let in

you kissed me passionately
while I laid stiff, unmoving
and you reached down to aim
pressing slowly, agonizingly, into me

I cried out in pain
tears spilling down my cheeks
I didn't like this feeling
but you were too focused to notice

and I whimpered and cried
with every thrust
I know you heard it
but you mistook it for lust

exhausted you lay
facing the other way
while I curled into a ball
more silent tears beginning to fall

this never should have happened.
why didn't I speak up?
why didn't I stop him?
it's all my fault.