YEAR 2014
Karylle
"Anne, nag hihinala na kasi ako. Ilang linggo na siyang palaging late umuwi." Here I am again inside Anne's dressing room, ranting about Yael and his weird habits lately. It's been 3 weeks since we actually had a proper conversation. Tuwing mag uusap kami laging nauuwi sa sigawan and I don't know why. He was never like that.
"Malay mo naman he is just preparing hard for a show ganun."
"Anne, I know naman na he is really working hard and I do understand the situation naman pero kasi, this time, sobrang iba."
"Sa'yo na mismo galing, K. You understand the situation pero have you understand him?"
"What do you mean?"
"K, the problem is kaya ka naghihinala, naka focus ka lang sa situation, try knowing his side and put yourself in his shoes. You know na Yael is a hardworking man. Out of all the guys who even tried to court you, alam mong si Yael talaga ang naghirap para makuha yung matamis mong yes, diba? Do you think that he would waste all his hard work just to get you? I don't think so. Think about it K." After Anne's speech, yes speech, kasi para talaga siyang may pinaglalaban, she left me inside her dressing room, to maybe contemplate? I don't know.
I was about to leave the room when suddenly, Vice entered the room. He went straight in front of my mirror and fixed his hair, ah, I mean, wig, but whatever.
"Hi?" I greeted him but asking him at the same time. It looks like he is not aware that I am here.
"o, bakit pa-tanong yung pag hi mo?" Vice said with a slight chuckle while still fixing his wig.
"Kasi, I don't know if you're aware of my presence inside the room, like, hello? You just barged in inside after Anne slammed the door while I try to leave and went directly in front of the mirror to fix your imaginary hair, I mean wig." I obnoxiously said to him while doing gestures like 'hey man, I'm inside the room, I just want to let you know. Okay? Cool.'
"Woah girl, medyo offensive yung 'imaginary hair' na part ah" he replied with his hands on his chest, doing this, 'bakit parang kasalanan ko?' position. "But yes, true enough, this is my imaginary hair." I laughed quite a bit after he said that. At least aminado siya sa sarili niya.
"Yan" He said then faced me.
"what?" I asked with confusion evident on my face.
"You look better when you are smiling." He suddenly scooped me for a hug. I can smell his sweet scent but somewhat kinda strong smell because of his perfume. I mean, it smells like a woman's perfume but a man's perfume at the same time. Oh man, his perfume is just like him, confused.
"Alam mo, hindi naman sa pagiging chismosa kurba, pero narinig ko yung usapan niyo ni Anne." What? how? I loosened myself from the hug to look at him directly in the face.
"yeah, alam kong ang tanong sa utak mo at gusto mong itanong sa akin ay 'What? how?'" He mimicked my voice while saying the last line. Gosh, it took all my will and strength to not tug down the imaginary hair of this gay man.
I detached myself from the hug and sat on the couch. Oh God. Now Vice knows.
"You want to talk about it?" He softly asked as he sit down next to me. "Gagita kasi yang si Anne e, iniwang naka uwang yung pinto. Mabuti nalang at ako lang ang nakarinig. Paano nalang kung iba? Edi nagawan kayo ng issue?" He said with concern then held my left hand which is trembling because of so much anxiety that is consuming me. But Vice is right. What if it was some other person who eavesdropped on our conversation? I am not ready to be a part of an another round of relationship issues. No. Not again.
"Uwi na tayo?" He asked then stood up to fix my things on the table and carefully placed them to the bag where they properly belong.
"Yeah, sure." I answered while staring blankly at nowhere. "Uh, hey Vice, would you mind if you'll drop me at my house?" Okay, I am trying to sound like a friend who needs attention here but, no, I do not. I just want to make sure I'll come home alive because I might get into an accident if I'll drive myself home since my mind is floating like a bubble in the air.
"Yeah, sure." He answered then mimicked my voice once again then let out a small laugh after he said that. Oh Vice!
Karylle's Condo
7:00 PM
As I stare at the tall buildings, busy streets, and city lights from my window while sitting on the side of my bed with a coffee in hand, I really felt the loneliness that is consuming me. I have a lot of friends, I earn a lot, well, let's be humble, but yes I do earn a lot, I have a loving mother and a supportive father, two caring sisters, and fans that I treat as my own children, and of course, a boyfriend. Woah, wait a second, a boyfriend? Kinda weird to say that huh.
I breathe out a little sigh then took a sip of my coffee then sat down on my chair by the window and folded my knees up to my chest to make it a more comfortable position while I contemplate.
Do you ever get that feeling when you just feel sad all of a sudden? Like, you don't know the source of the sadness but you really can feel it inside. My anxiety grows more and more everyday and I am now losing on the track to control it. God! This is killing me! Feeling too sad but you don't know the reason why you're sad? Nice. Could not get any better.
After I finished contemplating and drinking my cold coffee, I head on back to the kitchen to wash the mug. As I was scrubbing the mug using the foam, someone pressed the doorbell of my unit repeatedly and it was very very annoying. I finished washing the mug then placed it back to the cupboard then tend to the annoying person behind the door.
As I peeped on the peep hole, someone unexpected was standing on my front door wearing a black cap and a long black t-shirt, and wait, hold on a second, he's not wearing any shorts?! Oh wait, he has shorts, but it is a teeny tiny short short.
"What the heck are you doing here,Vice?" I asked the unexpected visitor once I have opened the door for him to come in.
"wow naman K, ganiyan ka na pala bumati ngayon" He said, quite laughing, then went straight to my sofa in the living room. "K! order tayo ng food? I'm starving" Vice said while typing a familiar number, pizza hut.
"yeah sure, whatever." I said then sat next to him. "So, what brings you here? Himala ata at wala kang dalang alcohol" Vice chuckled and looked at me straight into my eye. Oh no.
"Hindi naman ako nag punta rito para makipag inuman."
"e, ano?"
"nagpunta ako rito to clear our relationship"
Merry Chrisler :-)
