Language of Mine

Mon, July 16th, 1:34, 2018

Hello.

I'm scared.
I love you.
I love you and I'm scared.

And lonely.
I'm lonely.

I'm trying to breathe but,
I'm scared.
Afraid.

Lonely.

Lonely.

Lonely.

Fearful.
And lonely.
Always lonely.
Never alone.
Just reaching.
For a hand.
A smile.
Anything.

Anything?

I'm desperate now.
I'm starved and desperate now.
I cant stop myself from trying.
Too hard.
Too much.
Too fast.

Push them away.
Make them leave.

I dont mean too.
I need them.

But I'm alone.
Lonely.
Dangerous. In my mind.
Dangerous thoughts.
Dangerous mind.

Lonely and desperate and afraid.
Dangerous person.

Please dont leave.

Please don't leave.
Please stay.

Just for a moment.

I'm.

Dying.
I'm dying.

Suffocating.
Losing my mind.
Losing my soul.
Losing my hope.

I. Cant. Breathe.

I can never breathe.
I can never hope.
Cant ever hope.
Cant ever hope.
Can never hope.
Dont hope.
Please don't.
I can't.
Do this.
Again.

Please.
It hurts.