I LOVE YOU BOSS.. (under major editing )

chapter 34 Angelo meet his Dad

Angel

Nung makita ko si Ken pagpasok pa lang namin ang mansyon nila Kat alam ko kailangan ko siya makausap at ayoko siyang iwasan dahil di habang buhay kaya kong magtago,

naaawa na din ako sa anak k everytime he asked me about his dad I cant even answer directly dahil ayokong magalit ang anak ko sa ama niya..

that night when everybody decided to stay katrina and I went back to my family house to grab some clothes and my son's favorite pillow and pajama.. just like ken mahilig din sa pokemon..

nakahinga ako ng maluwag nang unang lumapit sakin ang anak ko para salubungin ako dahil hindi ko pa alam paano siya i aapproach. Rinig ko, Rinig kong tinawag niya ang pangalan ko but I just smiled to tell him everything will be ok kahit na alam ko na nasaktan ko siya he also froze when he heard angelo called me "mommy"

makalipas ang gabi pababa ako ng kusina para kumuha sana ng maiinum dahil hindi ako makatulog nakita ko siya sa balkunahe ng bahay magisa at malalim ang iniisip, same old ken I knew back then so I decided to grabbed the oppurtunity to talk to him.

bumalik ako ng kwarto namin ni angelo to get my son's photo album made specially for him cause sa loob ng 4 na taon inipon ko at idinokumenta ang bawat importanteng nangyayarisaamin ni Angelo.

inamin ko ang lahat sa kanya..

kung bakit ko kailangan umalis at iwan siya ng walang paalam..

sa bawat bigkas ko ng mga nangyari I forced myself to smile at him to let him know we are ok, I am ok..

I can see the pain in his eye., I know he felt sorry for everything but to be honest he shouldn't be sorry cause I'm not..

If it weren't before wala sakin ngayon si angelo.. 

his been my strenght and my life and my weaknest the same time I felt when me and Ken still together..

"Mommy why thinking so deep tita pochi said its time for breakfast lets go down.. tito's and Tita's are already in the dining area.." my SON SAID

"Okey little man we will go down but first let me smell your mouth if you brushed your teeth?" I said to him he just giggled ang let me smell his breathe ito na yung routine namin every morning..

after the lambingan morning namin ng aking angelo bumaba na kami na nag kukulitan 

"Mommy you should have let me talk to that ugly man to tell him that his not allowed to court you" paglalambing ni angelo alam ko narinig nilang lahat yun including kenji but i didnt look at them cause i dont wanna see his reaction

"baby mommy can handle it, trust me.. diba i swore that your the only man in my life, siya sit down na sit beside Kouie and Kathy so we can eat...

Hi guys good morning sorry I'm late" sabay bati ko sakanila

pagupo namin ni angelo, we prayed and then started to eat at first no one wanted to talk so I took the floor to start a conversation

"so pochi when are you planning to start the construction of the hospital at ng house niyo sa tagaytay?" me

"oo nga pala, kelan nga ba kuya? babe?" balik niyang tanong kay harold at kay Louie

"well depende sa mag dedesign" sagot ni Louie at tumingin kay Ken

"oh ikaw pala makakatrabaho ko.. looking forward to that" sabay ngiti ko saknya

"yeah, I'm looking forward too" sagot naman ni Ken

pag tapos ng breakfast namin we decided to go to the mall para naman mag enjoy for today ang mga bata, gusto ko sanang sabihing bad idea dahil si Dave at kyen humiwalay kita na lang daw mamayang lunch sa Tokyo Cafe ganun din sila kuya Harold at si Ate Cassie.. 

so we kat and Louie with Ken stuck together dahil sa mga bata..

"pwede ba tayong magusap?" panimula ni Ken

"yeah I guess so, habang nageenjoy yung mga bata.." sagot ko sila kat binigyan kami ng space para makapagusap kami sila ngayon yung tumitingin sa mga bata habang naglalaro sa may inflatable slides

"nung umalis ka.. 

I been through hell, madaming nangyari bago ka pa umalis our company had a difficult time nakailangan kong harapin..

nung time na narinig mo kami na sinabi kong ayoko pa magka pamilya totoo yun pero narinig mo ba yung kasunod ng sinabi ko?" umiling ako

"ang sabi ko nun "ayoko ko pang magkapamilya sa ngayon dahil kailangan pa ko ng company namin, kailangan ko itong mataguyod uli... pero kung si angel lang din kaya kong isuko ang lahat at magsimula ng panibagong buhay makasama ko lang siya""

I'm hurt when I heard that but because of my hormones before i chose to run away

"I'm sorry, I should have confronted you that day but I chose not to.. my pregnancy hormone was so strong before but when I started to control it when I was about to go back to tell you everything something came up..

my heart..

starting to gave up..

but i fought..

cause i wanna see my baby grow and meet his dad one day.." I smiled and tears running down my cheek..

"nung nakapanganak ako under c-section its like a miracle na parang nawala yung nagpapahirap sakin but that was only my thought.. when I was in the mall nakabanggaan ko si Harold and in that day nalaman niya ang totoo cause I fainted humihina yung puso ko and I needed imediate medication but I dont have enough money that time, hindi kami mayaman kaya hindi ko masabi kila mama na unti unti na kong pinanghihinaan ng loob na baka isang araw mawala na lang ako at maiwan ko si angelo" ken touch my face and wiped my tears away

"Harold helped me to get strong a little para sa operation ko.. tumagal ng isang buwan ang pag papalakas ko and after that one month i met katrina.. malaki ang utang na loob ko skanya cause she was the one who paid all my hospital expenses even cassie she took care of him nang mga panahong nakahimlay ako sa hospital at walang malay after the surgery.. I was in coma for 3 day sabi nila kuya harold and lucky me I'm alive as you can see" sabi ko sabay ngiti

"Don't say that Angel, Please bumalik ka na sakin this time hindi na kita pakakawalan lahat lahat sasabihin na natin sa isat isa walang lihiman walang mangiiwan" ken pleaded

gustuhin ko man na bumalik sa kanya pero di ko alam some part of me wanted to go back in his arm pero some of me have doubt now..

"Mom why are you crying?" Angelo asked.. but i smiled isntead of answering him and faced him to Ken..

"I want you to meet your dad Angelo" I said when he heard that angelo immediatly hug ken same goes with ken.. 

Whatever God plan, I'm willing to risk evrything but not now..

ill do that when i can handle my heart properly